Oh buddy, been there. Sometimes when we are in a situation we don't realise just how bad it is in the moment, and when it ends we can be in a bit of shock. I worked in a job once that was toxic, but I found it so hard to leave.
When I finally did leave I had a break down and experienced awful anxiety and depression for months. I learned a few things from that experience. I realise work wasn't the only factor, but it had a big impact on my mental health and confidence.
I'm sorry you had to have this experience, but the way you explained the environment it sounds like you are much better off now. Why would you want to work for somebody who'd treat you that way in front of other people, or at all for that matter. Especially when there's jobs out there where you'll be appreciated for your work, and treated with respect.
You can't control how other people speak to you, but you can decide how you'll feel about it. And you're worth more than letting some fool put you in a slump.
After two years working full time hours I'm sure you became used to the routine, it was familiar and you probably had friends there. And now it's gone, just like that.
Change can be hard to manage sometimes, especially sudden change. But things have changed for you in the past and you're still standing. You've felt the emotion of embarrassment before and here you are. You already know that it passes in time, so why not decide to let it pass now instead.
So take a few days to grieve, make a decision about your next steps and get to work.
It won't be long before you have a new routine, a better job and are out there making new friends amongst your workmates.
Just do one thing today towards your future, then another tomorrow.
All the best mate.
