Hello,
I hope you are doing ok at the moment and not being too hard on yourself. Going back to your profession must have been a difficult decision but it sounds like you were enthusiastic about it before you started your training.
Try to remind yourself of all the reasons why you want to go back to the profession and how you used to cope with the day-to-day of the work. What are helpful ways you can cope now that you have used before? Most of all try to focus on your accomplishments and not on your mistakes when you are training. It is going to take time to get good at something and you are back at the beginning which is the hardest and sometimes best place to be because you have a lot to look forward to doing and you will be constantly improving.
Why are you worried about how other people are performing in the profession? If you are trying to improve at something it is best to only try to improve your own performance. If you goal is the be the best at the profession and do the job better than anyone else then you might want to find another reason to be doing what your doing. Aim to be better than you were yesterday, last week, last month, or last year but don’t aim to be better than other people. All you can do is be the best at being yourself and doing your best.
And maybe if you get to know people in your profession better you might see how they struggle to cope sometimes too.
But if your current workplace is too stressful, it may not be the profession you are in that is the problem, it may just be the wrong place for you to work.
See how you feel after working there a bit longer and if they are not supportive you may be better off finding a different place to work. But also, starting a new job is never easy and it might take a few months to feel confident again
