Anxiety and Psychosomatic symptoms

[Andre_P]

Haven’t been on here in awhile. This has been the hardest year I’ve ever had - EVER. I’ve been looking for a new rental for the past 8 weeks solid. Put it this way, if I were to get paid for the effort I’ve put in id have about $3000 of extra money in my pocket.

I don’t even know where to start. I’ve got to get out of this place. Can’t stand living with dad. Not only does he not support me or is unable to, he actually annoys me and further fuels my anxiety/ocd/panic. My anxiety is affecting my OAB and is creating very real symptoms.

The rental market has gone completely mental and there must be up to 12-20 applicants per house. I have looked at 500 homes online, 60 - 70 in person and applied for up to 14 homes. My record is immaculate but it’s a numbers game and people don’t like pets.

while I’m anxious I’m also quite frustrated that someone won’t give me a go. I’m starting to really dislike people and I’m just pissed off I can’t get out of this place no matter how hard I try. I just need a break. Mums trapped in QLD n I’m trapped here in WA. I’m trying to organise a house for mum n I. The covid19 was the worst thing to happen to this economy and people’s attitude and perception in general.

I need a house the most but I’m getting the least acknowledgment. I gotta be honest I can maybe go on like this for another month. I’m seeing my psychologist and he’s good but yep I give it a month before I completely lose the plot. To be honest I’m soo tired at looking for homes it’s ridiculous. I suffer with ocd so doing something over and over is something I actively try and avoid to be normal. Looking for rentals for 8 weeks solid makes me feel very distraught to say the least.

anyway...

[Andre_P]

$50 from mum and $50 from me. $100 all up 👍

[blondguy]

Hey mate

You are spot on about its about who we know...not what we know!

What a great token of appreciation with the gift card for your agent 🙂

you are a legend....seriously!

Good1

Paul

[Andre_P]

Well that’s that idea gone. Agent is an absolute legend but the owner is an ***hole. It’s beyond me why the owner said no but I’m really not in a good place right now.

My fear/panic has now turned to anger/frustration. I’ve been getting these headaches for awhile too and today isn’t good.

I’m a good person that needs a break and I’m seriously starting to dislike my fellow human.

That was a 1 on 1, with a credible reference from an agent, why the hell would you say no. These people must have too much money. It’s not like it was an opulent fortress. No negotiation or anything. I’d pay double the pet bond if they want, triple if I had to pay.

I feel soo trapped and after the anger subsides I’m pretty sure I’ll be back to where I was except worse off. I can’t take this anymore, what’s the point.

for the record I’ve applied for over 16 homes now.

it just gets to a point where I can’t even be bothered and I don’t even have the will to do this anymore.

staying where I am is seriously affecting my mental health. You can’t meditate in a tumultuous household. I only ask 1 thing and that is to be able to move, jeez.

[Andre_P]

Still bloody looking. It’s beyond a joke now. Soo much for that agent helping me. He bloody ghosted on me and couldn’t even answer my calls after I was declined. Maybe he feels bad the owner declined it. Either way he should of answered my call.

I may as well just sound proof my room, lock myself in my room and meditate for the next 3 months until this bullsh*t country/world sorts itself out and settles the hell down cuz that’s the only thing that will get me through any of this. The problem is this is physically possible.

You wait until the corona supplement ends, the rental prices will crash big time. The thing is I don’t know if I have 3/4 months in me. Fml.

[Andre_P]

Well better get some sound proofing foam haha

[Sophie_M]

Hi Andre,

We're so sorry to hear about your real estate troubles. Living in insecure housing is very stressful. We want you to know we're here to provide as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

Our support service is reaching out to you via email as we are worried about you.

Please know help is always available to you. Our support service offers advice, support, some counselling and referrals appropriate to your needs 24/7 on 1300 22 4636. If you're in crisis you can also reach out to our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14.

Please keep checking in and updating us on how you're going whenever you feel up to it.

[Andre_P]

Thank you for that. I guess I could. I do see my psychologist now almost once a week now. Already used up the gov‘a 10 visits a year so now I’m cutting into my funds, but I have private health so I’m not too worried, plus money is literally the last thing on my mind right now.

my psych does understand me. I dunno if I want to speak to too many people about my problem. I don’t feel comfortable with a lot of people knowing. I just talk general on here. I’m ok, I’m not suicidal although I am feeling quite depressed because of the severity of my anxiety symptoms.

Just in case I change my mind, what number do I ring. My psych did give me a number but I just wanna check.

Thanks again for caring.

[Andre_P]

Things are a little bit than last time time. Still nothing spectacular though. Literally just to get by I have to do hours a day of meditation and when the dog next door starts yelping put my earplugs and earmuffs in. This is no way to live life as it’s like walking on egg shells however short term it’s working. Obviously meditation is good but doing it 4 hours a day most days is pretty time consuming. Much better than 4 hours a day of ocd and panic though.

I really do need a bloody house though, obviously 1 next to no barking dogs. I actually nearly got 1 and the owner may have approved it but unfortunately it was right next door to more tumultuous upheaval (barking dogs etc etc).

Gotta be patient I guess. Gotta move to the right house. No point going from the frying pan into the fire.

[Andre_P]

I did finally get a house. It’s been stressful moving though. Now I have a whinging cat next door. I did tell the owners and it seems to be put inside for now. I’m trying to organise roller shutters.

Anyway mum finally comes back next Wednesday which is good. Dads gone up north for a week, we were actually just starting to get along well too (probably because I moved out haha). But yes just a bit lonely by myself until then. I’m meditating and trying to get through it. yesterday I had a panicky moment / episode but I’m ok. Just touching base to let ppl know I’m here.

normally I like my own company but just been a bit fearful lately. Send us a message. It’s good to chat, n take my mind off things. I’m meditating now.