Anxiety and Psychosomatic symptoms

[Andre_P]

Haven’t been on here in awhile. This has been the hardest year I’ve ever had - EVER. I’ve been looking for a new rental for the past 8 weeks solid. Put it this way, if I were to get paid for the effort I’ve put in id have about $3000 of extra money in my pocket.

I don’t even know where to start. I’ve got to get out of this place. Can’t stand living with dad. Not only does he not support me or is unable to, he actually annoys me and further fuels my anxiety/ocd/panic. My anxiety is affecting my OAB and is creating very real symptoms.

The rental market has gone completely mental and there must be up to 12-20 applicants per house. I have looked at 500 homes online, 60 - 70 in person and applied for up to 14 homes. My record is immaculate but it’s a numbers game and people don’t like pets.

while I’m anxious I’m also quite frustrated that someone won’t give me a go. I’m starting to really dislike people and I’m just pissed off I can’t get out of this place no matter how hard I try. I just need a break. Mums trapped in QLD n I’m trapped here in WA. I’m trying to organise a house for mum n I. The covid19 was the worst thing to happen to this economy and people’s attitude and perception in general.

I need a house the most but I’m getting the least acknowledgment. I gotta be honest I can maybe go on like this for another month. I’m seeing my psychologist and he’s good but yep I give it a month before I completely lose the plot. To be honest I’m soo tired at looking for homes it’s ridiculous. I suffer with ocd so doing something over and over is something I actively try and avoid to be normal. Looking for rentals for 8 weeks solid makes me feel very distraught to say the least.

anyway...

[Sophie_M]

Hi Andre_P,

Welcome back to the Beyond Blue forums. We're so sorry to hear about all of the difficulties you've been experiencing househunting. We empathise with how difficult it is to be away from our friends and family and not being able to find a new place. Please know that our community is here to support you and we will get through this.  If you feel it might be useful, we'd encourage you to visit our Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service. The website will be regularly updated with information, advice and strategies to help you manage your wellbeing and mental health during this time. This includes a 24 hour Support Service.

If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help you get through this tough period.

[Peacock27]

I have been so stressed out lately and especially with school. I am currently in year 8 and everyone thinks of me as this perfect human being the teachers favourite and smart in all...but really I am not. At home, things are difficult my dad is different and every day I don't feel safe, but I don't know how to talk about this to my mum. Last year was satisfactory as I had some really great friends but one bad day ended one of the strongest friendships I had in high school.

I just don't know how I can get through it, and sometimes I wish I can run away or do something before I get really badly hurt by my dad.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Peacock27,

Welcome to the forums! If you would like to seek help from the community, we would recommend that you start your own thread as this is a thread is a thread for Andre_P to seek help. We're so sorry to hear that you're struggling at home. It sounds like an overwhelming situation with your father. Please know that you don't have to go through this alone, there is help available to you. We are getting in touch with you privately to offer some extra support.

We would strongly recommend that you get in touch with Kids Helpline - https://kidshelpline.com.au/ 

It sounds like you're in a really tough situation and it might help to talk it out whenever you're feeling overwhelmed. Kids Helpline counsellors can be contacted 24/7 via telephone and also via webchat if you go through the website provided.

If you are interested, we would also recommend getting in touch with an organisation called Headspace. Headspace is an organisation specifically for young people aged 12-25 and they offer a wide range of services including group programs. They also have a group chat on their webpage.

Thanks again for reaching out as we know that it can be really tough to do this for the first time. We hope that you create a thread of your own and keep checking in to let us know how you're going, whenever you feel up to it.

[Andre_P]

Thanks Sophie, much appreciated. I just like getting things off my mind. See I know what I need to do, the problem is been able to do it. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. Now I’m almost at the point of where I can’t even be bothered or I don’t even know if I can do it anymore. You can only say soo strong for soo long before you snap.

Peacock, some advice, get away from your old man ASAP if he makes you feel uncomfortable or pushes your buttons etc. Take it from me, I spent years in the old mans family business, I’m 33, full of mental health problems and phobias and very little to show for it. If I could turn back time I would. Don’t make the same mistake I did mate.

[Andre_P]

You can only stay soo strong**

[blondguy]

Hi Andre_P

Your reference to your dad reminded me of my own dad....This can be awful to go through where our self esteem levels are concerned....I hear you loud and clear....I am still paying the price

Thankyou for the care you have provided to Peacock27 btw! You are proactive with your life by posting

I hope you have had some success in your search for a rental property Andre_P

here and listening (any questions are always welcome)

Paul

[Andre_P]

Cheers mate. Well guess what. A nice property manager has been keeping an eye on me for a couple months now and he is about to give me first dibs on the next property and put a good word in to the owner (no competition, no other applicants). Very rare this happens. I’m not counting my chickens yet but hopefully I can get out of here in the next week or so.

it really just goes to show we are just a number in this world and it’s not what ya know, it’s who ya know. Life isn’t fair but it’s the way things go. I really hope this goes well for me because I gotta be honest, another month of this and yeah I don’t really even wanna think what will happen (that’s me putting it lightly).

I’ll keep you posted.

[blondguy]

Hey Hey Andre_P

Thats great news mate!

You are gentle and proactive.....Karma seems to be working well

Thankyou for taking the time to post the good news!

Good1 🙂

Paul

[Andre_P]

Thanks man, I saw the agent today and all is good. He’s running it by the owner but it looks 99% sure I’m going to get it.

Again it definitely is who you know, not what you know. I’m glad there are some good people around who you can build a rapport with. If I get it I’m getting the agent a $50 gift card and a good google review.