I have gone through many relationships that have not lasted at all. I do happen to suffer social anxiety too.
First one failed because I was too needy. Second failed, because I was dumping problems onto the other person. Third one failed, because I was projecting too much of issues onto them.
My friendships have not really lasted as I overburden them or often fail to make my needs communicated.
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A lot of the time, I feel bad for making my own needs met, often overapologise and feel insecure about the connections I make. Unfortunately, anxiety and insecurities are the black holes of relationship energy.
The most frustrating bit is, I'm very self aware about anxiety, but I can't stop it. It is like a train that keeps running off the rails, even the operator knows that it's gone off tracks.
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What can I do about this? My last cousellor wasn't very particuarly helpful.
