Hi madwoman
Firstly I wanted to say that it took so much courage to reach out and I am so glad that you have. I am also sorry it has taken so long for a reply to you. You sound like you perhaps live in a remote area as you mentioned not having any family or friends where you live, that must be really difficult especially with two boys with autism. I have not experienced children first hand with autisim but my friend's son is autistic and she too has struggles, so you are not alone there.
I am sorry you are feeling lonely and I am more that happy to chat to you anytime and hopefully provide and ear to listen and some support for you, well as much as I can as I am no expert. Nights are tricky to get through and especially if you are feeling lonely and isolated. What are you currently doing now when your kids go to bed? What things do you enjoy doing that perhaps you don't get time to do during the day as you are busy caring for your sons?
You also mentioned that you feel very scared, is there something in particular that you are frightened of or is it the fact that night is coming and you feel alone?
I would enjoy chatting to you more.
Hugs to you
AS
