I have been seeing someone for 7 months, in 2014, he had some commitment issues and he also made it obvious that we both are young and it was no need for all this (both 1st year university students).
I know it does not sound long but with the cultural background I have, it's very hard for me to cope with it all, I'm not aloud anything like this at all even at my age.
Since he was the first I interacted with, I can't help but to still feel broken, worthless, hopeless and just not myself at all. It's been 4 months I try and try to forget it all and it's just not working, I haven't contacted him either since then. Some days I feel like yeah everything's going great, maybe time help each other but then it goes down hill and I cry every night. I'm usually the quiet one in the family and very innocent.. I feel that I've ruined my innocences with this person, I feel shameful and very embarrassed. I also put others first then myself that's why I can never feel happy.
Boyfriends, sex, love etc are all still taboo's.
I still love him dearly but I also have a need to please my parents and people around me.
I feel that his not happy with me, and that I've also ruined myself by being with him.
Please help.
