im 20, im a young mum of a 3 year old boy and a 6 month old daughter. i was engaged but as of last night, he gave up on me. he couldnt deal with my out of control mood swings and my lack of motivation, my constant fear and inability to leave the house, the fact that everyday just getting out of bed seems like a struggle.
ive had depression/anxiety most of my teenage life. id been on meds since i was 12 and stopped taking them when i fell pregnant at 17.
problem is it feels so much worse than how it used to feel. it feels so much more suffocating. my ex told me if i couldnt figure out what was wrong and get help for it, he was having my kids taken from me because im not stable enough to deal with them.
he thinks i have bipolar or borderline personality disorder.
where would i go to have checks done for that kind of stuff? can a doctor diagnose it? will they take my kids if i am diagnosed with it? how would i go about going to the doctors when leaving the house causes anxiety attacks? what do i say to them about it?
im confused, im scared and now that my partner has broken up with me im also alone.
i have finally pushed everyone in my life away because of my twisted mind. the one thing i was trying to prevent was the one thing that ended up happening. i cant keep allowing it to happen and ill be damned if i let him take away my children.
