Struggle

[user_90]

Hello,

This is my first time posting here and would really appreciate some advice. I have suffered with mostly anxiety/OCD since I was 17, now I am 20 and things haven't really changed much. I think depression has now come into the picture. I left all my friends from high school and really haven't made any new ones since. It's funny, the older I get, the harder I find it to interact with people and get to know someone. It has been rough these past few months also, as I came out to my family only a few mouths ago, so I'm finding this new transition difficult, as I kept it in for so long. I'm not the most confident person out there and the scary thing is, I feel fine being alone, cause its easier, but I am wasting my youth at the same time. My mind manipulates me, if that makes sense. I am a over thinker too, always analysing people, and also in my head, questioning things which is exhausting, that makes is hard to meet people.

I'm not going to go into any more detail as its just too difficult to explain, even I can't understand it. Just venting I guess, thanks for taking the time to read.

[Larnzi]

Hi User_90,

Welcome! I am a newbie too & here if you need to talk. I think it's great that you have had the courage to talk about your anxiety & ocd & coming out, especially at your age so you should be really proud of yourself for that. Especially as you noted about wasting your youth - something I have done so that's why I think it's so important that you should be proud of yourself that you have taken this step.

I can relate strongly to the not making friends easily,overthinking & over analysing too. These seem to ring true to a lot of anxiety sufferers. I find something that helps me is reading other peoples stories of their recovery & what they went through & how they were. I find it gives hope & positivity that we can all have the ability & strength within us to get through this. Have you thought about seeing a psychologist at all to try to help talk things out with?

Larnzi

[Thunderdog]

Hi Larnzi,

I am also new on here and just finished writing a post scarily similar to yours all be it in a different way I can relate, especially the worrying about wasting your youth.

I don't have any awnsers but reading your post somehow made me feel a little better knowing at least 1 other person understands what I'm going through and I'm not stupid for thinking what I'm thinking so maybe it might help you knowing the same.

Thanks

🙂

[user_90]

Thank you Larnzi for the reply and help.

I have been to a psychologist once which helped alot. But I feel like you have to manage this on your own too, and each day become a better version of yourself. People come and go at the end of the day.