Starting to lose all hope

[Mufasa]

I have been battling depression and anxiety for 10 years now. Iv done everything I can seen doctors, been on anti depressants and talked to psychologist. Last night and today by far the worst I have ever felt. I have been panicking since 11pm last night, I can't stop crying or pull myself out of bed. Mypartner doesn't   even know how to deal with me right now. I just feel so completely worthless and useless, how do I get myself out of here! It's to the stage if I didn't have my beautiful dog to care for that'd be it for me. This tightness in my chest and downward spiral is really testing me today. 

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[Pixie15]

Hi Mufasa,

Thank you for sharing your story. You sound like you are in a very negative place right now. You have a beautiful dog who loves you and a partner who is usually supportive. Did something happen to trigger this anxiety spiral or did you just reach the point of not being able to cope any more? I just wanted to respond to you because I was wondering if you had given up seeking any treatment. My son who suffers anxiety has tried to give up taking the anti depressants at different times and he has ended up back living with me for support. If your partner does not know how to help you right now do you have family who you can turn to for help?

I hope you get some responses from some young people. Please do not think you are worthless. That can not be true.

Grateful.

[geoff]

dear Mufasa, welcome to the site and thanks for posting your comment.

Depression for anyone is an awful illness, especially for those that are young, but that's not to say it's any easier for adults to handle.

I would agree there seems to be something that has triggered this break down as you say it started at 11pm, and now you're caught up in a spiral downwards, so it would be important for you to get back to us.

We could make assumptions but that is not our aim to do this, because the chances of us being wrong are on the cards, and it would be of no justice to you.

So I do hope that you can get back to us. Geoff.

[Doolhof]

Hi Mufasa,

It has been a couple of days since you have sent your post. I hope this means that you have managed to gain a bit more of a balance in your life.

When you are starting to feel like you are on a downward spiral, are there things you have learnt to do to stop you from going so far down next time?

Do you ever use the telephone help lines, like at Beyond Blue, Life line or others aimed more at a younger age group? They may help you immensely. If you are able to talk things through, you may feel a lot better.

It is not always easy for the people around you to be supportive and helpful as they just don't know what to do to make you feel better. If there is something your partner can do, then let them know.

Maybe plan some strategies on a good day when you are coping, then when you start to slide into a downer, your partner may be able to recognise the signs and help you before it all becomes too serious.

Hope these ideas help, and hope you get back to us so we know how you are travelling.   From Mrs. Dools