Sitting on a fence

[nicknack]

Everything that people see enjoyment in, for example music, alcohol and sports stimulates emotions (happiness/sadness/love or hate). I believe emotions are a weak way to escape the reality, that we are here for no reason (which is fine, we don't need reason) but when people accept this fate (accept emotions) they begin becoming lazy and fall into ignorant patterns, like believing these delusional emotions have bearing on their life having meaning. Emotions let them hide the reality of life. They also affect their decision making, choosing emotion over logic.

If I toss all that makes me 'human' away (emotions), what is left? a feeling of melancholy, what would I do in life (live in cabin by myself with animals or get a job)? and why would I? (when we are controlled beyond belief by the small group of people who run the governments and feed us propaganda, I can't change anything because they control all people- I realise this sounds insane like I'm a 911 conspiracist lol), because people want to feel like there's meaning and will accept everything to be kept in blissful ignorance, because if they thought my way there wouldn't be any reason to live. I cant sit on a fence with an issue like this.

I don't want to follow ignorant people, but everyone else will feel as if they have a reason for life (like a love or a specialized profession), I wont ever feel that. Is it worth going my own way or folding to go their way? 

Thank you for reading any feedback or alternatives would be greatly appreciated. 

[Jacko777]

Hi nicknack,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums, I relate to a lot of what you are saying.

I don't think you need to get caught up in comparison with other people, we are all on our own journey and who are we to say what is right for someone else? Emotion certainly seems to be a large part of the conscious reality of a lot of people, it's like it is a program that we are taught and we continue on. I have managed to reduce much of the useless emotion in my life, it didn't serve me.

I believe that by reducing emotion you have the opportunity to find what is your true self. I have investigated what is important to my true self, the things I choose to do regardless of money, relationships or anything outside of me for that matter. These are my pure passions and ambitions...so for example I have unconditional love and I share it with people who are suffering, I have much care for nature so I volunteer for conservation groups, etc. The small group of people you speak of may control our money etc, but they cannot ever touch my heart, I don't buy their story and I live as best I can being true to my self.

You are on a great journey to work out where you fit in with all this, don't stop, don't give up, and don't settle for melancholy, keep thinking and researching and be positive, find positive solutions to how you can move forward AND be happy. I bet there are lots of people who think like you, try and find them. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. The negative in the world can be replaced with positive, one person at a time.

Jack

[Neil_1]

Hi there nicknack

Welcome to B.B. and thank you for providing your post – and wow, what an insightful post and viewpoints.

Just before I go on, I wanted to share this:   my partner last week was saying how stressed etc she was at work and all the pressure, etc etc;  I said, but hey, you (or anyone involved) could die at any time – isn’t that a bit more relevant and scary and stressful, rather than these ridiculous deadlines that you’re having to try to achieve?   She responded with, this is my job and what I’m being paid to do.

My point there was, that I believe I’ve taken emotion out of situations as well and looking at the much broader picture and I’ve realised it’s not a very positive or uplifting result (or future, I guess).

So nicknack, in so many ways, I agree with your post as my mindset seems to be along the lines of what you have posted.

Though I do have a job and in many respects it’s something that is very valuable – ok, for me the number one thing here is the fortnightly receipt of money into my bank account, but the sub plot of this is also that it provides me with something ‘semi’ useful to do for five days a week.  So I’m not focussing all the time on ‘other events/topics’, which for the most part is probably a good thing.

Anyway, do hope to hear back from you.

Neil

[Riaido]

Hey Nick,

After reading what you have said, id say go your own way, there is no fun in doing what others do, ive never lived my life as a sheep, i dont regret it one bit, for a long time i was very similar in the fact 'whats the point', i still think like that sometimes, but i found my enjoyment in helping others, and the satisfaction of seeing them not in pain (i studied to be come a remedial massage therapist) and its very rewarding.

 Find something YOU enjoy, might take some time, but there will be something.

 Riaido.