Hi RuneCat. Welcome to the BB forum
I personally haven't delt with hyperthyroidism however I know what it feels like to feel like a failure and to struggle with self esteem. I was kept back a grade when I was in year 1 (it is a family trate to get our intellect later in life, I have since done uni) and I went through puberty young. I went through it as 11 and my friends were ten. I found this hard to deal with because my body and hormones were different to theirs (note most of my friends went through it late), so I know how self esteem and puberty can affect ones self esteem.
Some people struggle to open up about their mood to a stranger. I did at first too. Like you I shut down with counsellors. I think at a young age I struggled to accept I may have depression or anxiety. I also was worried my parents would worry about me or treat me different. I wish I tried to open up more to a counsellor. I since have and I feel so much better as they have helped me learn more about myself and they have taught me how deal with my feelings. Now one of my first counsellors I went to I didn't connect with. When I went to a second one I connected better with him and my road to recovery began. If you don't feel like you and that counsellor are clicking maybe try another one. There is a youth mental health service called headspace, maybe look that up if it is something you maybe interested in.
Now being young and sexually confused is normal. I went through the same thing. I talked to a friend who I knew identified as bisexual, because I was confused and thinking I was bisexual. Do you have a friend in the same boat you can talk to? There is also a forum on here about sexuality you can go to for support. Some people think people can only gay or straight, but sexuality is a spectrum. You can be in the middle or 75% straight or 35% or it can vary from time to time. This is called the kinsey scale (look it up online if you like). I was confused at 16 too and then I got a boyfriend and thought that was my answer. I began questioning again when I was 22. Don't worry you'll figure it out in your own time. I know identify as bisexual however I am only open with close friends and family. Don't feel rushed to pick a label, you don't even have to use a label if you don't want. Just do what makes you feel like your true self and what makes you feel comfortable and happy.
Hope some of this has helped. Keep me updated.
