Sad all the time

[anon12]

Hi everyone,

I'm not usually one to do this sort of thing and share my problems as I'm scared of burdening people, but I feel like I can't talk to anyone because most people I find either get sick of me expressing my sadness so I keep it covered up now. I have dropped out of uni twice as I found both courses weren't for me, but now I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I feel so lost. I've been feeling this way for about a year now and it hurts me so much because I remember the happy girl I once used to be, now I look at myself and I'm disgusted.. the person I am now is unmotivated, cries for no reason and I just feel like there is no point to anything I do. I have been going through this "rough patch" for over a year and it doesn't seem to be getting better. Some days it's like I'm having a breakdown and everything feels difficult. I don't know what to do anymore, does it ever get better? I'm only 20 but I feel as I'm just wasting my life which sounds weird but I'm so lost with everything and looking at my friends and brother and sister, everyone around me is doing so well but I am just unsure about everything.

[Bec_Luke]

Hey anon12,

Im pleased to hear that im not the only one feeling the samething. Its only been a year since my depression got really kicked in. But I totaly unders5and you when you say how you remember the happy girl you used to be. I feel the same I feel like im lost and I dont really know who I am or becoming any more and I too do remember the person I used to be befor all of this and now I dont know whats happening. Im turning 20 in a couple of weeks and it does feel like im wasting my life the important parts of years of my life as well. And I feel like no one wants to have anything to do with me these days either because its like I have nothing else but to complain or because im upset all the time I feel like my happyness isnt there its just everyday comes and goes. 

Anon, you arnt alone, ill be here if you want to talk. I want to try and meet new people and support others as well as they support me. Its alwsys nicemto know at times that there are otheres out there feeling the same way you are.

Kind reguards 

Bec x

[anon12]

Hey Bec,

 I am really glad to know I am not alone with this! Obviously it is sad to hear other people going through the same thing as it's never nice to hear of other people suffering and I understand exactly what you mean. Being so young I have my parents trying to make me go out and do things (go clubbing like a normal young person) and even though I appear happy to everyone I'm just suffering. I was thinking to myself last night although I am not at that stage, but you hear of people that commit suicide and everyone says they should have talked to someone about it... but I often think to myself who can they talk to? I honestly appreciate everyone in my life and everything my parents have done, however when you tell people exactly how your feeling I tend to get a "oh well, everyone feels like that" response which doesn't help.

I am very happy that you have shared your story with me and in just doing that I don't feel so alone! And if you also need someone to talk to I hope I can be of help!

anon 

[Bec_Luke]

Hey Anon,

Againg I know what your talking about, I mean I try and talk to people about what going on and sometimes....I dont know why I bother I mean I get the same response, or the 'every one has there ups and downs good times and bad times' 'rough patches' and I just think to my self , just just dont seem to get it or understand do you. Its just so hard when as easy as it maybe to say everyone has there ups and downs, not everyone knows what its like to be you to experiance what you have to go through what you have to deal with. And some times it takes a whileto over come things like this and some dont/cant at all.

im so glad iv found someone I can talk and relate to tho

Bec x