Problems with dysthemia

[Josh99]

My General Practioner diagnosed me with Moderate Chronic Depression a while back. I have so many problems like I am always living in the future and along with everybody else living in the present. This affected my relationship with my girlfriend. I asked for a bit of a break and not see her for a week or two to find myself mentally. I found myself, but we her and I we can't find time together because I have school work and so does she. I really want it to work out. The only reason why I'm living right now is because I have hope in the present with her. A song that sets my mood right up is the I need you the Beatles. Can someone please give me guidance because it may happen and I'm afraid I won't live anymore.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Josh, welcome back to the forum. I'm really glad to hear that you took the advice to see a GP after your last post. Did the doc refer you to a psychologist or discuss treatment options for your depression with you? The right treatment and support can do wonderful things for your sense of clarity and managing stressful situations. Is your girlfriend aware that you're experiencing depression and that was the reason for the break? Perhaps you can find some time in your schedules to meet up for a coffee and just talk about what's been going on. It's possible she thinks you want to break up, given that you initiated the break, so just filling her in on the situation and reassuring her you still want to be together might resolve the situation.

[Josh99]

Thank you for welcoming me back. I have seen the GP and I am going to a psychologist and I am also taking medication. Well she was scared of me and afraid of me because when I tend to get really depressed I take too much medication and I end up needing medical attention and she was scared of me and she left me because of it. She said to me that she was afraid of being a lone with me because I'm mentally unstable. I don't think I needed this at this time during exams and having what I have. I'm afraid that I'm mentally unstable and I scare all of the people that I love.

[Josh99]

She left me because I'm stupid with my medication and I've lost her because of something that was passed down by genetics. It's the worst feeling.

[PatT]

Hi Josh,

It really sucks how a lot of people can't understand the types of problems we have to deal with on a daily basis and it sounds like this girl might not be right for you, even if it sometimes feel like it is. I just turned 25 but I remember how difficult breakups were when I was younger and so much of the time it revolved around my anxiety/depression. I think what's best for you right now is to stay on your medication (in the right dosages) and speak to the psychologist about how you're feeling at the moment.

I really hope you're careful with your medication. I've been in the position where I've intentionally taken too much and the consequences are not fun at all. Be careful Josh, and remember that time does heal every wound. What you feel right now won't be the same as what you do feel in a couple of weeks or months.

[Josh99]

Thank you, PatT's

its so hard because when I saw her on the bus she started crying because she still loved me I'm just so sad that she is like that because I still love her and she isn't the right age to deal with me at all and I understand that because she is two years younger and I feel like fool telling her my problems because she can't handle them neither can I. But thank you it helps

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Josh99,

Just wanted to welcome you and thanks for posting.

I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time and am really glad that you came to the forums. Dealing with depression is such a hard thing to go through; I wouldn't wish it on anybody. Know that you are doing all the right things - you're going to the GP, seeing a psychologist, on medication. Being able to admit that something's not right is one thing, but doing something about it is another. So I really commend you with that.

Does your girlfriend know a lot about your depression? You said that she was afraid you were mentally unstable; I wonder if maybe it would help to talk to her about what you're going through and give her some resources. It's possible that she could be putting up some walls because she is afraid of you hurting yourself, but often in relationships the key is just understanding. I am in a relationship and it's been really hard, but having him understand what I'm going through and what helps/doesn't help can help a lot.

Hope this helps - maybe if you mention this with your psychologist he or she might have some ideas too.