Hi SaeDi93,
While I know people mean well, and I am certainly not here to criticise another forum user, I would suggest you stick to researching about DID. There is a book called "The dissociate identity disorder sourcebook" by D B Haddock. BPD is a personality disorder whilst DID is a dissociative disorder (it was changed from Multiple Personality Disorder to reflect this as people think it's a personality disorder). Did you get a 2nd opinion?
It's thought there are more mood changes with BPD and that these are more 'alien' or 'disconnected'. DID has a memory loss experience which I don't believe occurs with BPD.
Likewise people can be misdiagnosed with Schizophrenia. If you hear voices 'inside' your head then that is different to hearing voices 'outside' your head. DID is internal as far as what you hear and experience.
I know a lot about DID as I live with this, and have for a number of years, and as time goes on you learn how to manage and cope with it. It's not all bad but it does take time to accept and treat. People often think about movies like Sybil and that's pretty far-out - switching isn't always obvious or extreme and quite often people who receive a DID diagnosis probably never even knew they have Alters so this can be a huge shock.
Your Alters have protected you for probably a number of years, they are the reason you have survived. Much hype is out there regarding suicidal alters, angry alters, doing things you don't remember, stealing, waking up in strange places and so on. Every Alter in your 'system' deserves respect, love and friendship. Reaching them within the safety of therapy can be important but that's for your therapist to help you with. Keeping trauma memories away, protecting you, keeping secrets of the past this is all they do and all they know.
You are not alone. It's just the topic of DID isn't common like depression and anxiety. It's part and parcel of being DID that we don't discuss it. It's a phenomenal illness, often disbelieved by specialists so if you have a diagnosis then seek therapy by someone who understands and treats the illness. But by all means do your own reading, share with your partner as they can be helpful. You have a boyfriend, and he knows? Take him to sessions. He can help track your days, so maybe keep a diary - some people with DID find this a good idea and a topic for discussion in therapy, but others find it upsets their Alters so it's individual.
I wish you well. Thank you for posting.
Sammy.
