Hi internet,
These last few weeks have really not been great. I thought that since I was already socially isolated this lockdown would be nothing new, but this is just getting unbearable. No friends, no siblings, no pets, no extra-curricular activities - that's how it was before the pandemic. All I had were my university classes. Now even that tiny morsel of social interaction is gone, every class replaced by ridiculous zoom sessions where every student is muted and invisible. I don't think I have spoken to another person since March, and I don't remember the last time I could name a friend.
Lately I have been having this overwhelming sensation of heaviness and a terrible pinching feeling that continually distracts me from any work I try to do. I spend way too long in bed but always feel tired regardless, and I can't seem to find an appetite even for my favourite foods. I just feel so lethargic and miserable that I want to sink into the ground and close my eyes forever.
Before this lockdown my social isolation would make me lonely but had never affected my productivity or health. Now it is just impossible to ignore and I really can't shake this feeling of overwhelming misery. I have considered treatment but since I am not self-harming or suicidal, I am not sure that a doctors visit during a pandemic is justified.
The main thing I want to ask this forum is whether there is anyone else in this situation, whether they know how to get out of it.
