I want to help.

[Tianna]

Hi my names tianna, i had depression and anxiety which lead to an eating disorder for who knows how long, i had trouble fitting in at school and got bullied alot for being different. I dident want to open up to anyone. my depression was getting worse every day and i would purge after every meal i was so terrified of being fat and being judged so i made sure i was perfect. i started to self-harm and attempted suicide more than once but it never worked, i just wanted to leave i couldent handle the bullies and the pain they brought me anymore. my parents relized i wasent eating , that night they sat me down and talked, they tried to help but it dident work. I tried counseling and talking about my feelings writing a journal but i only got worse, it got so bad that i could hardly walk, i dident even want to get out of bed the morning and hoped i would never wake up when i went to bed at night. just as i thought no one could help me and was ready to end it all for good, something happened. one night i fainted in my room, my dad drove me into the hospital. they took my blod sugar and heart rate and they were a third of what they should normally be, my heart was dropping drastically and the doctors dident think i would make it a week, they transferred me to hospital were they forced food into me and made sure my heart was stable for the night. i was introduced to a diatition she inly deals with people with eating disorders and she helped me understand that im beautiful no matter what anyone else thinks and the only opinion that matters is my own, she taught me how to eat well and stay thin and that im not alone in this she showed me that no matter how bad it gets its only an illness and illnesses can be fixed, she showed me that i always had support and all the people who thought it was fun to pick on me and make me feel like a loser, all they were were bullies and they will always be remembered that way. what im trying to say is that your never alone although you might feel that way trust me i know but there's always some one who cares about you. i care about you. I dont want anyone to have to go through what i went through and i want to help anyone who is going through it to get better and feel good about themselves. you need to learn to love yourself and not care about what anyone else thinks. i hope all you guys can get help like i did talk to someone and get better before its to late.

[Jacko777]

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums Tianna. 

Gosh you have been through some hard times mate, I'm sorry to hear it. But I am so glad you are still with us and here to support others through sharing your story. Unfortunately some people will go through things like you have but at least we will be here to support them hey. Love to you.

Jack

[blondguy]

Hey Tianna

You have really been through a lot....Just a couple of points that I hope will help...even a little

* Great Post and very well done...you are strong

* What you have gone through is awful..

* The bullies will have their day...What goes around comes around...

* In your post I noticed the few lines in your final paragraph......very helpful to others on this site Tianna...

* If you wish of course...could you please get back on here and let others know what you have been through?

* You have a strong attitude.....we could do with someone with your sense of clarity and kindness....seriously

You have inspired me tonight

Kind Thoughts

Paul

[Bluey_moon]

Hi Tianna, 

Welcome to BB! 

Wow, you are very brave and you sound like you have been through a lot! 

It is so wonderful you want to help people and I think that is great! 

[Fairywings]

Hey hunny after everything you have been through you will find this crappy stuff you have been through will only make you a much stronger as a person. Everything you speak of i have experienced in my own life so i understand how daunting life can be at the best of times.  I see that you already carry an inner strength to help you deal with life and its crappy stuff and im so happy you had the strength to pull through.  Amazing well done hunny keep it up and we all care about you too. 😊😊

[music_my-life]

hey sweets,

you r a really brave person for sharing your story and I myself have dealt with anorexia back when I was in yr 6 and nowerdays I cant help but love myself for who I am. my family was born curvy and I can tell you that I love my balla booty. just stay strong and love your body and be an inspiration to others.