Okay, so I don't know where to start but I'm just going to get straight to the point.. I've been struggling for about 6 months now and it's getting to the point where I know this isn't just a phase. Everything has gotten so much worse lately and I honestly think I have depression. My grades have dropped tremendously, I've shut off from everyone and pushed them away, I've lost so much weight, I keep waking up at around 2-3am every morning, I do have thoughts about serious things. My birthdate isn't real and I am under 18. I'm not attention seeking. I really, really need help. But I don't think anyone will take me seriously if my birthdate was real.
I honestly think I have depression. I know what I'm feeling and this isn't right and this isn't just a phase. I cannot tell my parents, I'm not saying this because I don't want to. It's because I CANT. I've tried explaining it to my mum and she gets really angry and says "I'm going to shut down your world if you continue with this silly behavior."
I NEED HELP. My grandmother died 10 months ago and we had a really close bond, I'm not sure if that has anything to do with it. And my dad has had depression for 7 years now. I'm not sure if it has anything to do with genetics either but I REALLY NEED SOME ADVICE.
I can't keep doing this, I think I have depression and I don't want to do this anymore, please, I'm begging for advice.
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