So let me start off with some facts, I am 18 and a male, who has been struggling through depression - and was making really good progress like really good progress until this week. So there is this girl who had a crush on me and on multiple times I made it clear to her that I had no interest in her, and no interest in dating or anything along those lines on multiple occasions but she just kept trying. So she got a boyfriend about a week before a party we both went to. She told everyone not to tell me about the boyfriend, not a great deal of people knew but the ones who did were told strictly not to tell me.
So we were at a party and as per most parties she spent the entire time around me, I kept telling her no i don't want to hook up with her and then finally she left and started talking to other people. At this point me and some mates started drinking (this was my first time drinking ever) and my mates thought it would be funny to get me pissed, so I didn't realise at the time but they were get me really drunk and of course I am a stupid teenager I couldn't feel the effect immediately so I kept going. To the point that I do not remember anything past that point on the night and to the point where I was stumbling and passing out. So either way I was completely out of it.
From here the story is all from the girls point of view and not mine, as I know this all because she told me.
So this girl comes back and trys to get in with me, and I didn't saying anything she just took my hand out to the back. She was completely sober she had nothing to drink. So we went in her car and well we had sex apparently. She said I passed out and she just went at it and that I didn't say or do much I was just kind of there. So she just told everyone that I was sick so she was helping me. Then the day after I find this all out, as well as the fact she had a boyfriend. Eitherway I was so furious and angry and so ashamed I haven't told anyone anything. She then told me she took the morning after pill which I found out today she didn't, as she pissed her period and since me she has had sex with 3 other guys unprotected.
Is there anything I can do, about this situation or place I can go for support?
Ps I have a rare genetic disease and had never planned on having children ever because of it - I really don't want her to have a child because of this and I am not ready and I want nothing to do with her. The girl was 18 too.
I feel violated and cringe when people touch me since.
