I’M FINALLY REACHING OUT FOR HELP

[RealEyesRealiseRealLies]

I’m 20 with a 21 year old male partner & a 4 month old baby girl we’ve been together for nearly 2 years.

I’ve been having trouble even since my parents seperated when me & my 4 brothers were younger.

I really need some advice with help so that I can be happy again, feel self confidence & my relationship won’t be so dead full of toxic fighting that’s unnecessary.

Clinical Depression Disorder: I’ve lost all happiness & interest in daily activities that would normally be fun.

Anxiety Disorder:I’m always scared when alone, always jumpy looking around here & there, always fearing that something or someone will do something to me or us including ourselves & this interferes a lot with daily activities I lock myself in my room & hate silence.

Bipolar Disorder: I have a lot of episodes multiple times a day, week, month year my moods are so uncontrollable they go from feeling as low as wanting to be in the ground to as high as wanting to be in the sky.

Dementia Disorder: I do not remember my childhood or anything positive from my childhood as much as I try it’s only negative stuff.

Attention Deficit/ Hyperactivity Disorder:
I have a very low attention span I get bored very fast, I don’t pay attention unless interesting to myself otherwise I have a difficult time maintains attention to anything & everything.

Schizophrenia Disorder: I don’t think before doing things especially if my anger is so high up there. I feel multiple feelings at once nothing is a clear feeling & I behave irrationally towards everybody & anybody.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: I’m obsessed with my partner but it always leads down the worst path possible & the outcome’s always the same.

Autism Disorder: Social interaction with others i’m not familiar with or others I don’t know is very very hard to the point where I have no friends at all just my partner, his family & some of my family. I find it very hard & difficult to communicate & explain exactly what i’m trying to say or exactly what i’m trying to do & everything goes downhill.

Post Traumatic Disorder: I failed to speak up & speak out when I was sexually assaulted multi times growing up until I was about 12 & it’s just like a flash back like a scar I can’t get rid of out of my head, my partner always tells me to just forget about it & leave it in the last but how do you when they were so very close family members I have never been able to recover.

Please I really need advice & help!!!

[Jackson85]

Hi RealEyesRealiseRealLies,

Thanks for posting, it sounds like you're having a really hard time. Try not to give yourself a hard time for not "moving on" from such horrendous experiences like sexual assaults; some people don't understand how traumatising they can be. From all of the mental health issues you've listed, I think the best piece of advice I can give would be to try to talk to someone, like a psychologist. It's so great that you've decided you want to try to get your happiness back, and try to deal with past grievances, and I think that getting some professional help could be a perfect next step. I know it's really tricky, especially with a little one at home, but if you can get the time to yourself to talk to someone, it really can make everything else easier. The best way would probably be through your GP, who could help you chat to a clinical psychologist with medicare rebates, and they could help with diagnosis and treatment of any of the disorders you mentioned you might be suffering from.

If you'd like to talk more, I'd be happy to chat and hear about your experiences or how you're feeling.

Hang in there,

Jackson 85