I'm at a loss, any thoughts on why this is happening?

[Chiggy]

It's a little silly to come here but I've been feeling quite out of it lately. I can't sleep even though I'm deadly tired, I can't wake up from bed even though I'm wide awake, I can't force myself to eat - I don't really feel hungry and I often find myself spacing out, unable to focus on anything. I personally think it's just stress, but my friend told me it's not normal to be stressed during the holidays or school breaks.

It would have been more convincing if I knew what I was stressed about. I just feel extremely bad and nasty all the time. On one spectrum, I sometimes don't have the energy to bother with anything. I just drift in and out of my daydreaming and I can't concentrate. And this worries me because then in the other end of the spectrum I'm unable to stop myself from feeling and everything around me is like on overdrive and it feels like I'm oversensitive to everything around me.

I'm always worrying about everything, but on some Extremely Nasty Days my whole mind seems to go on shut down and I feel my anxiety manifest its own anxiety. It feels so disorienting because while on some days I feel like I'm fine, other days feel like a struggle to get through and a burden that I don't want to participate in (and they tally up to most of my days).

I'm most likely just whinging - whining and wailing about nothing - but just to be sure... if perhaps I could get some answers or some remedies on how to get rid of my Nasty Days? Tea doesn't work.

[Jacko777]

Hi Chiggy,

One word from me...meditation.

It sounds like you are young, still at school, the way you are feeling might be a part of the hormonal changes that happen as a part of maturing. Either way, meditation is a great way to train the brain to focus, it will bring you calmness and you will find a new level of concentration. Sing out if I can offer more advice on meditation, I could talk about it all day. Meditation has taught me to be able to focus on the breath, any useless random thoughts can now be thrown out by turning my attention to the breath, 4 seconds in, 4 seconds out, repeat until calmness ensues.

If you are concerned about yourself you could talk to a professional, a counselor or such, you can ring the Beyond Blue support service, nip this in the bud.

All the best, talk anytime, Jack.

[PamelaR]

Hi Chiggy

I welcomed you on your other posts. I'm thinking you've sent this one in reply to me.

Thank you for sharing your life with us. What you are experiencing is not unusual at all. There are a lot of us who have depression and anxiety who find it really difficult to get out of bed in the morning. When you're not sleeping well, this can impacts on the body, making you want to stay in bed more. Your friends are so right about saying that it's not normal. It would be good if you can see your doctor.

In your other post you said you're afraid to tell your family. Just wondering if you want to share with us why that is? One of the best things to help through is talking. Your friends seem very supportive of you. That is something to hold on to.

On the other post you sent (Welcome and Introduction forum), there are a number of responses (from Geoff, White Rose, Pepper) with contact number you can try.

You're not alone out there in what you're going through. I was never diagnosed with depression until my late 50s. Life would have been quite different for me had I gone a lot sooner for help. Having said that, I have lived quite a good life with my hubby. That I'm thankful for.

Take care. Please write back when you want to.

Kind regards

PamelaR

[startingnew]

HI Chiggy, ive just responded to your other thread that Pam has meantioned- perhaps your not sure how to get to that post again? if you click on 'my threads' itll bring up your other thread. theres some quite helpful responses on there.

thank you for sharing whats happening with you though and i can relate to quite alot of what youve said. again i think both Jacko and Pam have given some great advice.

do you think you would be open to talking to your school counsellor, a trusted teacher or a family member?

it can be really hard talking to family but you cant do it all yourself. youll need some supports esp when the 'nasty days' come around.

a good support service is also kidshelpline or headspace as well. the both offer online counselling with a qualified therapist and also offer weekly sessions if you choose to and also its free of charge, youll only need your internet connection or your phone to give them a call. . headspace is also an offline service and offers one-one therpay sessions, group therapies/outings, gp and much more.

you can find both of these by typing in 'kids helpline' or 'headpsace' into google and itll bring them up.

[Chiggy]

Ah! Thank you so much! I have been trying to meditate before I go to bed every night and I have developed a (sort of?) schedule to stick to.I appreciate the suggestion!

[Chiggy]

I'd rather not talk to my family members at all if I can help it.

It's not that they're not supportive, they're good people and I love them very much, but Mental health is kind of a dead area in my family - they don't believe that a kid like me could ever be anything but happy-go-lucky and I've never acted otherwise in front of them. My parents would call me 'lazy' and 'searching for excuses' if I ever told them I didn't feel right. Or maybe they'll also brush it off to stress.

I would never tell my parents about anything like this since it's a little humiliating for them to have a daughter who's feeling down in the dumps most of the time and it would seem ungrateful that I am not living my life when they've given me so much. I never want to disappoint them nor do I want to make them feel ashamed to have me as a daughter. It's easier if I bury myself with work, but then there are days where I physically and mentally refuse to do anything.

I don't want to worry them. I would hate it if they start to act strange and alienate me.

[startingnew]

Hi Chiggy

how do you know your parents would react like that? its hard to imagine that something good might come out if telling them. i understand that for sure but its because they lack understanding. perhaps your parents might have some suggestions for you too. you dont have to meantion mental health, but simply saying your struggling abit and that you would like some advice might come across better for you.

im wondering if something is causing this bout of symptoms- like is it school stress, expectations.... perhaps we could help you by working with you on what the actual cause is it might help your symptoms to ease as well....