I Feel Trapped

[YouYeese]

Hi, so I joined quite recently.

I've been suffering from depression and possibly other disorders too for more than a year now. I'm currently a 15-year-old female in high school. I began suffering from depression last year when I got dumped and left behind by many friends, leading me to being extremely lonely.

I cried almost every day, I hated myself so much, I thought it'll never end.

Then I got fictiophilia. Fictiophilia means to be in love with a fictional character. This pretty much changed my life. A character I fell in love with gave me so much confidence because of how much I related to him. I became so much happier earlier this year.

People began to judge me though. They thought I was crazy for being in love, so depression began to come back. However, two weeks ago I thought I was free. I was so happy, I really thought that depression was gone, until yesterday.

All because of one simple comment, depression came flooding back. My mind became flooded with negative thoughts, I cried for hours and kept laying on the ground. Then my grandparents shouted at me for having fictiophilia, making me feel worst.

Today I feel like crying again for no reason. I feel so weak again, my life keeps going through this cycle of hell. Please help me.

Thank you.

[Raccoon]

Hi YouYeese,

Sorry to hear what you are going through. I know it's not easy, but it is possible to cope with this situations.

Try to stay positive no matter what. It sounds like it's easy but if you try to find the positives in little things I think you'll be able to get used to it and see things in a different positive perspective. Remember that you're worthy and deserve to be happy. Don't let those intrusive thoughts take over.

Try to think that a year from now you will be having friends. You're still very young and you'll realise that friends come and go. The good ones stay. You don't need people who don't appreciate your friendship. It makes you feel bad.

Try to do things that you enjoy, maybe joining clubs or sports club (if you like sports) and you'll be able to meet people there that enjoy the same things you do.

Sometimes family and friends find it hard to understand what we're going through and they might not realise that what they say and do is hurtful. In this case I think you should try being patient and understanding.

i suggest you should talk to a professional about your depression and how to deal with people who say stuff about fictiophilia.

I hope this helps a bit at least with your situation 🙂 .