I feel really lost.

[Nick1]

So... I don’t know why, but I’ve always felt irrelevant to people. I don’t know how to describe it properly... but I do get attention from people but i just don’t feel like anybody sees me properly. I feel like all they see is a football player who likes to have fun but, every night I’m finding myself in my bed hoping I don’t wake up tomorrow. I hate myself... and I don’t see why anybody would/could love me for me.

i dont want to hurt myself or contemplate suicide or anything like that... but man I’m just always sad and I just wish I could feel the care that a person might have for me. I don’t know what to do anymore, and I feel like deleting all my social media accounts and just never talking to anyone ever again.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hey Nick1,

Thanks for your post.

I'm sorry that you've been feeling this way and it sounds like you're really struggling with this. In your post you talked about feeling irrelevant and like nobody sees you properly. What do you think it would be like if you were seen? What do you think they aren't seeing that's the real you?

My first guess is that you don't feel like you're worthy of being loved or cared about and that's what makes you feel unseen. It's an awful feeling but it's also an incredibly lonely one. I know for me personally it was like I could disappear and nobody would notice. Is that the same for you? I am just guessing here so I'm totally open to being completely wrong!

Having said all that though, I do appreciate you talking to us. Is there anyone else you would feel comfortable reaching out to and sharing what's going on for you?

Hope you enjoy being apart of the forums!