I Feel like everyone is against me

[ViperMist]

Lately my family has been very verbally against me and it makes me want to give up... I' m to afraid to go up to my mum and tell her I'm not okay and need help. She keeps telling me how she doesn't understand why I hurt myself and that I should stop taking my medication.... I' m scared and I don' t know what to do anymore and all I want to do is die and the thoughts have followed me everywhere, from my waking life to even my dream life what do I do I'm scared and feel alone


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[white knight]

Hi Vipermist, welcome to beyond Blue forums

Doctors undergo many many years of training to become doctors. Psychiatrists study for much longer than that. If you have doctor approved medication you should remain on that medication unless that doctor or another doctor tells you to cease such medication.

So ANYONE that tells you that you should stop your medication- tell them you will only stop it when your doctor tell you. Regardless of who they are.

Medication has rules. Rules like- how you cease medication i.e. raise it gradually, lower it slowly. These medications are not lollies where you can stop start and have days without them....it doesnt work like that. Medications should be used as prescribed.

At your age (I assume you are about 16yo???) it is hard when you have a mum that you cant approach. Would it be easier to write her a letter and hand it to her? Then walk away and wait until she reads it? Can you ask her if you can go to your doctor to discuss this attitude of your mother?

I have a strong feeling that if you and your mum got along better, you wouldnt feel so angry or desperate. So work on that.

Finally, there is a chat line number at the top of the page. If desperate give them a ring. they are great and maybe they will ask to talk to your mum?

Dont be so hard on yourself. It isnt your fault.

Tony WK

[ViperMist]

Thankyou for the surport I really do need it. 

I am 15 years old and I have written many notes to my mum but I'm don't have enough courage to show them to her, I have my farther who i feel is against me and my sister who always yelling at me, I think my mum is stuck in the middle so I will try my best to show her my letter and let her know. 

Thank you 

Vipermisty 

[geoff]

dear ViperMist, welcome to the site and thanks for posting your comment, because you need support, help and suggested advice.

You are caught between a 'rock and a hard place' right now, and being at your age it makes your situation so difficult, and it seems as though you are self harming, which is confusing your mum's decision, wanting you to stop your medication, however can I say that it's not the right advice, and excuse me for saying this, although there are times when this could happen, but I don't think it's now.

OK it's time that you went to visit your GP, and you can make up some reason that your mum will accept, like come home from school with your arm in a sling, a bit obvious, but what for what ever reason it has to be a good one, and not something where she or your dad will say 'it will fine tomorrow'.

What ever way you do it, you need to talk to him/her and this conversation is confidential, however if you want to, you can get the doc to talk to your mum.

If she still refuses then tell her that you will get auntie ? and get her to take me, and this may persuade her to make an appointment.

We really welcome young people similar to your age to post a comment here on this site, because many times it's their only chance to talk to other people who have been through the trauma of having depression, so please get back to us. Geoff.