I dont know why

[Meh_1]

Well i never thought i would do this but its just gotten to the point were i just feel like somthing is missing from me and ive tried to find it but i just cant, i feel almost like their is a black hole inside me and i just cant fill it but i can feel it just staying their. Some days i ingore it and i feel fine but other days its not lovely. I havent told anyone i feel like it will give them another burden that they will have. But i really feel this after i talk to my friend we can call her Bella for today, well me and Bella go way back and me and her were a thing for a while and i really did love her and she was so close to me and knew me like an english teachers knows Romeo and Juliet, this isnt about how i miss her but i feel like i have no one in the world that can really understand this messed up person i feel like i am. This getting pretty big so ill rap it up, if anyone feels the same way which i doubt but someone please help me.

[Peppermintbach]

Hello,

Bella sounds like someone who really knew you. Someone who seemed to have a very deep and genuine understanding of you...the parts that you liked about yourself as well as the other parts that you perhaps weren’t so sure about. I think that to feel understood is so important...

The “black hole” you described sounds very bleak. I feel to carry something like that inside you would be a very heavy and exhausting burden...

My experiences aren’t the same as yours but I do know what it can be like to carry a weight on my heart. It’s very draining and painful in my own experience...

I think it’s brave of you to reach out here...there’s no pressure or rush but it would be lovely to hear from you again to see how you’re doing since your opening post.

kindness and warmth,

Pepper