i can't cope anymore

[cpater01]

I have been abused at home and due to that I have been having a lot of trouble at school at home. I think have depressionI have been abused at home a lot and have been screamed at, sworn at. Hit a couple of times, teased and told I am worthless. Hen this happens I get

very upset and depressed and cry and scream at myself and blame everything

on myself. At school since I am so depressed, I have been wagging or

missing classes and have been failing all test and have gotten bad grades

because of what's happening at home. When I wag I go to my secret hide out

where I feel safe and calm. I haven't got caught yet but I think I will

get caught one day. Sometimes during class I go to the toilet to calm down

instead of staying in class and take it out on other people or teachers. A

couple of nights ago I tried self harm and found relief. I have done

it twice but am trying not to do it again since every time I am sad and

depressed that's all I think about. My home group teacher only knows about

the screaming and the swearing and hitting. She doesn't know about the self harm the wagging and bad grades and how I don't do my work in

class all I think about is self harm how do I tell her. I can't copeanymore. I'm not sure I want to commit suicide but all I know is I think I have depression. I don't know whether self harming is right or wrong

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[cpater01]

I am talking to my home group teacher hopefully tomorrow. I do have brothers and sisters I could even talk to dad. It's not my dad it's my mum. My dad works away for a month and comes back for five days

[--Danny--]

Hey buddy, hope u have had a better day today!! Please talk with your father & get this sorted out...does your mum abuse & beat up on your other brothers & sisters? Or does she just target you?? whats happening to u isn't right mate...all of us here have got your back!

[geoff]

dear Cpater, goodness me, at the age of 14, your mum should be disgraced for doing whatever is happening.

Let's start with your teacher he/she should really be told everything that is if you can rely on him/her, so further help can be given to you.

You can tell your dad, and probably should, but then I worry when he goes away again, that your mum takes it out on you which we don't want this to occur.

I agree with Neil and that you have to go to the police, but you will need an adult to go with you and report child brutality, which is certainly frowned upon these days and actually iilegal.

You also see if you can find somewhere else to live with another family member as it seems your mum is toxic and not helping you as you grow up. Geoff.

[--Danny--]

Hey, I was just checking up on ya & seeing if things are getting better for ya..

Danny