Having a hard time with my entire life. Too tired to do anything about it.

[Jimmy19]

I feel stuck in a job I hate, lost my grandma and my girlfriend left me within the last 3 months. I have absolutely no energy, i got to work, i come home and i basically sleep until the next day. I have no motivation/ willpower nor energy to eat right or exercise. I recently went to my GP and he diagnosed me with severe depression, gave me a recommendation to see a psychiatrist and put me on some medication to raise my mood. Blood tests results were normal.I can’t stick to hobbies; I get bored of them after a few weeks. I avoid going out with friends because I feel constantly tired and just want to go home. I don’t exercise because my job works weird hours and when I am not there I am sleeping. I haven’t gone to the psychiatrist despite being recommended 2 months ago due to just being lazy and not finding the time.
My Job in my GP’s opinion is my biggest problem. I work in retail full time and am basically carrying my team despite it not being my job. I have recently caught the eye of a lot of people higher in the company but I just am so put off by moving higher in retail. I have no idea what I want to do for a career and I feel like my list of options are getting shorter due to apprenticeships being rare to obtain once over the age of 21.
My family is distant, I can’t really talk to them in a way I feel comfortable, (just tell me I’m not trying hard enough). My friends however are my real support, its the only aspect of my life I am happy with. They are always there to help me get out of the slumps I go through, but I feel like this one is different.
The girlfriend situation was really tough, she was my best friend through highschool and we dated for the last 15 months. felt like I was putting in all the effort to see her and it made it really difficult, to the point where she would refuse to see me due to being too busy with going out with family despite me going through the death from my Grandma. Now I feel like I have made a mistake but she wants nothing to do with me, we went from talking everyday to just not knowing each other. Which I understand may be just her way of dealing. I think it was for the best; however it doesn’t soften the blow.
thinking about moving out of home, however I don’t think It would be a smart move financially due to being on a low wage and looking for an apprenticeship (if that is what I decide). I'm just so lost in life, I don’t want to do anything anymore. I’m so tired all the time and I just don’t know where to start.

[Guest_128]

Hey Jim,

Sorry it takes a bit to get going on the forum,but you will fit right in with the guys on here,so please give it time for them to find you.

You have had a lot going on in your life, I'm sorry about your grandma sounds like you were close.

Not sure of the time frame you have been on the meds,most take 6-8weeks to start taking effect. To me ,yes you sound depressed,and that is a horrible way to be. Maybe a visit back to your gp would be a good move.

Would like to hear back from you,and I'm sure there will be people around to say hi soon.

Dory

[molokai]

Hi Jimmy

I hear you.

You've got yourself here and laid it all out.Thats a huge start.Get it down in words is the first step in clarifying where you're at.especially in a place like this. You put it down in ways to explain to other people. Others will see it it'l resonate with their experience . In lots of ways you don't have to reinvent the wheel to get through.I haven't been here long but just getting heard and validated is huge.

sunny side up

cheers