Dear Alana
So sorry you have not had a reply to your post. Partly this is because the BB server has been down, on and off, for the past day or so. I'm hoping the problem is now fixed.
I find my GP is an incredible person. She is amazing with mental health problems. When she took three months leave last year she"handed me over" so to speak to another GP in the practice. This 2nd GP is equally as helpful. I am feel so grateful and blessed to have these two ladies care for me and I wonder what I have done to deserve this. They are extremely caring doctors and want everyone to become well. I am fortunate to be one of their patients.
So make a long appointment with your GP and have a good chat about the things that bother you.
I am unsure what you mean in your post
I have changed to an almost blame mentality as living there. I feel it is unhelpful for me to stay there as I can't help but return to old behaviour,
Can you tell us a little more about this? Do you mean you feel you are being blamed for something or you blame your parents for the way your life is at the moment? Also, why have you been prescribed medication you cannot get off? Forgive me if I am being too inquisitive and please only disclose those things you are comfortable about.
I saw a psychiatrist for eight years. He was not helpful but I needed the help of my GP to be able to stop going. Sounds stupid doesn't it? I was actually terrified what would happen if I left although I tried to go. So no more psychiatrists. I do see a psychologist and I find him remarkably helpful. So I suppose it's the luck of the draw.
Many people say they try several psychologists before 'clicking' with someone. You need that feeling of mutual respect and security. You also need to be able to say what you think and for it to be accepted as valid, the way you view your life and the world. It may be that you change your view as the therapy continues. It's partly because we are all growing and changing but we benefit from the objective viewpoint of the psychologist.
I wish I could return to the "good old days" and there were lots of them. It's what keeps me going. I want to be happy, confident, capable and all the other good attributes. I know everyone has their problems at times and copes with these difficulties. My ambition is to learn how to cope without falling apart.
Please keep writing in. You may want to consider starting your thread so that your comments and replies are all in one place and not mixed with InBetaATM.
Mary
