Hi. I just joined so don't really know how this works...
But I joined this because I need to tell someone about how I feel and thought this could be a good way.. Ok here we go:
I moved to Australia about one year ago with my cousin and my friend( Jenny) to study.
During this year I noticed there is alot of things I don't like about Jenny. Her personality changed when I lived with here. She is very negative and acting really spoiled. Therfore I avoid hanging out with here as much as I can.
1 month ago my cousin moved back home since she was done with her studies. Now I live with my boyfriend (who I met when I moved here) and Jenny. I love my boyfriend and love spending time with him, but most of my day I spend at uni with Jenny and it takes alot of energy from me.
I also have trouble getting new friends which is a big problem for me. After my cousin (and best friend) moved back home I've been feeling very lonely. Most of my dayes I spend in my own little bubble of thoughts. Lately I've been building up some anger during the day for no reason at all and I take it out on my boyfriend when I get home. Nothing bad but I'm just being in a really bad mood and don't want to talk to him. And he don't know why I'm so angry and I can't explain why I am because I don't know. Then I feel really guilty and sad and end up silently crying myself to sleep. I know I should get out there and make an effort to find new people to become friends with but I just don't feel like going out trying. I just want to stay at home and watch TV shows and spend time with my boyfriend.
So basically I'm feeling very sad and lonely at the moment and get angry for no reason at all. I felt the same thing back in 2012 and I don't want to fall back to where I was then...
Sorry for this long post.. I just needed to get it out somewhere and I'm not quit ready to talk about this to anyone I know.
Ava
