Feeling like I need to let it out.

[Erinya]

Hello  everyone

Lets just keep  this short. I feel as if I have to start talking or I will  explode. I feel like there is nothing I like about myself whether it be my physical appearance or how I  lead my life. I refuse to open up to anyone. Due  to  this I  have very few friends. I can't get a job. Every time I go out I feel as if everyone is judging me. I'm always so angry. Every time something goes wrong I  blame myself regardless if I'm  at fault or not and I'm always worrying about things. 

Kind regards. 

[CrashCoyote]

Hi Erinya,

Thank you for your post and for sharing your situation with this online community.

You will find plenty of support here and can have as little or as much involvement as you choose. Someone will always write back to you. The forum is anonymous and there is some excellent literature on here as well as access to skilled support by web chat and the hotline.

If you want to open up, we are here. Your struggle is not uncommon and you are not a bad person for experiencing strong emotions surrounding your life.

Kind regards,

John.

[Erinya]

Hello and thank  you  for replying  

[dougall]

Hi Erinya welcome to the forum.  I would like to hear a little more about your story when you are ready.  It does help just to type whatever is on your mind.  You are important and we will listen.

[Erinya]

Hello

I' m feel a little down and in self loathing. When ever I  make a mistake I seem to want to hate  myself even more.  Its like I can't  move on from one mistake. Most days I hate everything about myself. I tend to feel like I'm not good at anything.

[Liam007]

Hi Erinya,

Somethings you are saying actually match what I'm feeling, so I certainly empathize with how you are feeling.

Some mistakes are out of your control, this is something that took me a long time to learn and not all mistakes are bad. You could be still learning or new. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Mistakes can be difficult to respond to but try think of them as a learning experience

and let me just say you are more than welcome to post on this forum as much as you like.

Welcome to the forum

[CrashCoyote]

Hi Erinya,

It is good to hear from you again.

I do not know if this helps but I want you to know that we are all of us humans. We make mistakes. We are our own worst critics. I like to call my mistakes "experience" because that is what they are.

If one of the others on here posted your story, would you support them or crush them? I thought so, now try to give yourself the same support!

I look forward to your next post.

Kind regards, John.

P.S. Liam, same goes for you, matey.

[Erinya]

Hello  Liam,

Its so good to hear that's good to hear that someone else is feeling the same as me.

Also thank you  everyone for the warm welcome.

[Erinya]

Hello,

I  am beginning to realize things about me that I do have trust issues and I tend not to be open and welcoming with people  which is probably because cause I am independent and very reserved.  I have always been one of those people who kept themselves to themselves. I feel as if I  don't want to let people in cause I'm always thinking is this person going to like me for me. I think that the reason that I'm so self - critical is because I was raised in very honest surroundings where if you were over weight it you were told.

Erinya

[CrashCoyote]

Hi again Erinya,

The traits you describe certainly do not amount to mental health problems. Many people are reserved and shy. It takes all kinds. I admit that people being frank without tact, especially in formative years, is not ideal. I am sorry if you were brought up with lots of honesty and little empathy.

By the way, selling your trust dearly is not a bad thing. People need to earn it.

I am glad you are posting.

Kind regards, John.