Hi, I’m 20 about to be 21 and, I’m still living at home with my parents. Not that anything is wrong with that for people to do, but, I’ve been wanting to move out since I was 18, and then all of a sudden I turn 18, I couldn’t walk for like 8 months. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I got diagnosed with a disorder where your body shuts down because your brain takes over to try and protect you by giving you very real feeling symptoms of weakness, sharp pains, shaking, etc, it’s called fnd. I’ve been re-learning how to walk, stand, run and just do everything I would’ve normally done before all of this. Due to not being able to move for a long time or get a job, meet new people, play sport or make friends, it has impacted me mentally triple time. I’ve never had a good relationship with my parents either so, it made it much more difficult for me to get back to normality. This started late 2022 and now it’s 2025, since then I have made tremendous progress and I’m basically doing everything I wanted to do again! The only thing now being getting back into work, however, in the meantime I have had SO much more mental buildup from listening to, and being in arguments with my parents, and all of this whilst I recently stopped being friends with my friend of 8 years. She was my big support in getting through all of this and throughout all of high school and just everything to do with keeping me somewhat sane with my parents. I’ve been keeping it all in this year because i barely ever saw her due to her not making an effort to want to see me anymore. So naturally all of this built up inside me and I became so incredibly stressed dealing with that situation and my parents at the same time. My thoughts are sO loud at this period of time and my parents are triggering me a lot and it seems like the progress I made with everything seems to go backwards a bit because of the way they talk about things to do with health. My brain ends up freaking out and then all of a sudden I have “symptoms” in my body. My thoughts are just a load of you need to move out, you need to get a job, you need to go out more, you need to prioritise your health. But I’m stuck in waiting periods, for me to get into a job, to go out and move out I need the money from the job, and to prioritise my health I need to be out of the environment that keeps on triggering it. I’m in an endless loop of thoughts as I’m not able to hurry many things along at this time and it’s all to escape my parents.
