I have tried so hard, I have spent every second moment thinking about chores and school.
it just doesn't stop it won't end I'm so tired all the time and every one wants me to improve all of the time I am never enough for anyone, I can't have more effective sleep medication because of my other meds, why does it seem like my life just keeps getting worse?
All my friends have energy some of the time it's not fair I'm sick of being different I can't even find common place with my other ND friends none of them have both autism and adhd anyways.
I don't understand how some people can be happy it no longer makes sense everytime I leave the house it's like living isn't worth it no one really needs me anyways I've seen it, I am so pathetic I'm stubborn and spoilt I am like a leech I force everyone to care about me or pretend to.
I am a burden my sibling shouldn't have to deal with me, my favourite person finished school not long ago I constantly miss them I can't get help because all the ways avalible are burdensome to others, I am overreacting I always am my attempts will always fail as I'm too cowardly to die and I can't my sibling wouldn't be safe if I died I'm trying but nothing seems to work the years just keep going.
