Hi Alzter,
It's great you've stumbled across the forums to express your feelings, it takes courage to speak up, and for that, I'd like to commend you. The forums are a great place to express any worries/concerns/feelings, while also gaining some knowledge on similar situations that may or are affecting you.
I'm really sorry to hear about the situation you're in currently, it sounds like quite a painful time in what I'm assuming are your teenage years? Things like this should be peaceful and resolved in the most civilised manners; I've never personally understood how much hatred can go through a parents mind when it comes to the best for their kids.
I know it might not be the best time in regards to speaking with your father but have you tried to bring the conversation up? I know it might not seem like much initially, but voicing your concerns can do wonders. I understand being 17 now, that I often have that concern of bringing up concerns my now separated parents and honestly I'm still not good at it 😕 I'd suggest maybe leaving a note, civil of course, discussing your feelings.
I noticed you mentioned that you hadn't seen your mum since may, have you had any contact via phones/text?
Although, it seems that you haven't got the strongest liking for your father, have you taken into account the stress he may be under? Often stress and negative things can affect judgment and the actions we take. I don't know much about family law, but is it possible you can come to an agreement between your parents. I'm sure someone on here with a bit more experience will definitely chip in.
What are you currently doing to get by each day? You seem like you're struggling, do you have some coping mechanisms in place? What do you like to do in your leisure hours? That was a lot of questions I apologise; it's just good to know more about the person for a more tailored response.
I promise only one more question :), Are you still at school?
Finally, please remember there are a range of support channels available if you ever feel like you need immediate support; Help is always available through Beyond Blue – 1300 22 4636, eHeadspace 1800 650 890, even better both support networks come with a live chat feature if you don't prefer to talk.
There's always someone willing to listen to you 🙂
We're here to listen; we're here to support you, make your journey here as smooth and supportive as possible.
Keep in touch; I look forward to your response.
For now,
C.
