don't know how to feel

[cc16]

I haven't been diagnosed with depression yet but I feel as though everything is suffocating me and the only place I can escape to is school. People have been calling me things and I didn't like it so I retaliated and I defended myself which I have later realised was not such a smart idea. I decided to talk to this guy I knew who is a good friend but all he did was try to cheer me up and told me to stand up for myself. When that stopped working I came here. I have been crying a lot lately and I have logged out of all my social medias. I feel like everyone is going behind my back and I don't have anyone to talk to. No one seems to care anymore. I want to be happier but when I'm happy at school it's genuine but beneath the happiness I just want to leave.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi cc16,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for being here.

I'm really glad you decided to join us and there will always be people here to talk to. We care about you.

I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time and that people are calling you things. I am glad though that you logged out of social media; as someone who was addicted to it I think it's hard to do but great so then you don't have to put up with anything online. It's unfair that this is happening to you; can I ask if you've talked to anyone about it? It sounds like this guy wasn't very helpful; maybe it might help to talk to someone else like a teacher, school counsellor or your parents.