I was diagnosed with depression around 6 years ago now, and I feel like it comes and goes for months on end. I haven't been able to identify what keeps causing it to come back but it does. I haven't been longer than 6 months without falling back into it. I still haven't been able to understand what makes it go away. Sometimes I just wake up happy and full of life and energy, and sometimes I just begin to feel emotions again but either way the depression goes away for a while.
For the past month I have been feeling incredibly numb, started during the mid semseter break at uni. Nothing brings me joy or pleasure anymore, I have no energy or motivation to work towards my goals or continue my hobbies, but remembering my psychologists advice I keep at it anyway. She said that action leads to motivation which leads to action but regardless of how much I do or even what result I get from uni, I feel incredible numb. I haven't been able to get appointments with my regular GP or psychologist until the end of June and I'm begining to wear myself out. I don't have enough energy to do everything I need to do; exercise, eat right, do university work, work on hobbies, and be with those who care about me. I'm starting to feel frustrated and wonder how much longer will I be like this. Could be months before I return to normal and I'm tired of not knowing what to do to help. I'm looking for any advice to take, and maybe even advice to prevent this from happening again and again.
