Cold feet? Anxiety probably.

[Guest51956]

Hey everyone, I hope all is well. Sorry to be a downer but I'm not so well. Life has stopped for me, day by day nothing really happens. I know life really hasn't stopped but it really feels like it for me. I believe it or not have 11 siblings, this being the case I shouldn't be feeling lonely at all? Well yes I in fact do feel alone. I haven't got any friends, this is my own fault for not making myself seen by the world. I think what really has run me into the ground though is that ACL broke. Riding a moterbike on a farm in the dark on a dirt road at forty kilometres/hour has some consequences. I hit a stone, lost balance and made a last minute attempt to stop myself from crashing. I put my leg out. This is getting too long. My point is life sucks too much to care.

[stormcloudz]

Hi DoshieWashie

You sound depressed and sad. No wonder you have trouble making yourself seen - it must be hard with competition from all those siblings! It's hard enough to put ourselves out there at the best of times.

The accident sounds painful. That sort of thing can cause us quite a lot of shock, it can take a while to get over.

You're among friends here, no need to feel like your posts are too long.

Have you heard about Headspace? That could be useful - just google and you'll find them. In the meantime we're here if you want to talk.

[Guest51956]

Hey stormcloudz, Thank you for replying. Don't worry about anything I just said 🙂

I have a terrible problem where I just throw my head at a keyboard. This isn't how I make friends. But in saying that I wanna throw my head at the keyboard again.

[stormcloudz]

Feel free to throw your head at the keyboard anytime - that's what this forum is for. How are you going today?

[Guest51956]

Hey, I have been feeling a lot better since my last posts. I have had my ACL reconstruction surgery. Staying away from motorbikes. I recently went through a period of time where I was super fit healthy and full of energy to do things, even though I hadn't had the surgery at that time. Yeah, then I slipped a disc in my back the L5 lumber. That period had a stop because I couldn't move almost at all. After a month or two I had my ACL reconstruction while recovering I wanted to study. I finished the course I was doing but now I need a job. I finding that a lot of places don't like my work history. Even though it was caused by these injuries. I can't give that excuse to an employer. Which sort of leaves me in a bit of a pickle. The environment where I was super fit was at a gym. I can't afford it. 😞