Can anybody help me out?

[anonmyous]

hi. i'm 13, and i am almost certain that i have some sort of mental illness - depression, anxiety or ocd, i have no idea but i am sure it's something.

i have compulsive urges to do things like standing up and start cussing for no reason, or just wanting to hurt people, or doing something absolutely meaningless and random because something tells me that if i don't do it, something bad will happen later.

also i feel constantly in worry and i never seem to be able to relax. and then other times i feel really euphoric and elated and feel like i'm on top of the world.

this has been happening for maybe 2 to 3 years now, but my impulsive thoughts/actions have started since early childhood from when i can remember.

someone help me out please, thank you.

[Fairywings]

Hi there sweetie and welcome i can empathize with u here bc what u speak of i was just a little younger than urself when these things started to happen to me as well. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and i was just 8 yrs old when it began it continued for 5 yrs xx these things u speak of as i got older were getting a little worse and it wasn't until I was 20 yrs old where I was diagnosed with depression bipolar disorder and boderline personality disorder. If u haven't already u can call headspace and chat to them u can continue to write to us here u can also contact kids help line they r always there for u too. What u r describing here are the classic symptoms of depression anxiety bipolar amd boderline personality disorder. I would also go to a gp u feel comfortable and have a chat with them and see you may need a further referral to a psychologist possibly even a psychiatrist xx I hope this has helped u in some way please do keep in touch with us venessa

[anonmyous]

thank you very much. i admire you for being so strong.

[Fairywings]

anytime sweetheart always here for you if you need me I'm an now 36yrs old married with a beautiful boy so my point to you please don't loose hope urself ur a beautiful girl with ur whole life ahead of you don't let ur illness control you you need to fight it every step of the way believe me there is always light at the end of the very dark tunnel and if u put ur mind to it u can achieve wonderful things in life xx love and light to you sweetheart never be afraid of speaking out bc that's what i did i couldn't hold on to it for much longer held onto it for 20 yearsthat was long enough i wan't going to let this family memeber he was my first cuz 😞 have control over me anymore, I finally gained the control from speaking out and confronting he and his family in the one sitting that was interesting lol 🙂 I am still seen as the one who opened up her mouth and shamed the family but thems the breaks i don't carry his weight over me anymore the other stuff that comes of it we learn to manage it as we become stronger, you will get thru this sweetheart be strong like I said i am always here for you and so are the many of us on here xx much love gorgeous girl and please keep posting if u feel the need too. I have also written a book about my life- writing things down is very good for the soul helps in so many ways if you need to start a journal do it that way ur feelings, ur anger ur rage ur guilt / shame etc etc can all be put to paper and not held within that beautiful heart of yours xx Venessa thanks for coming back to me xx