Anger and anxiety, HELP ME

[mhk_khm]

I feel like my anxiety and my anger is completely consuming me.

I dont know what to do anymore, I am on an anti consultant drug, but it seems to only be adding stress with all of the side affects... I am a generally happy 21 year old female, but I am pushing away all of the people in my life who mean the most with my acid tongue, impulse / heat of the moment reactions and my panic attacks. I dont know what to do, I hate that I am such an angry, jealous, judgmental, anxious person, I just want to be something and someone that i can be proud of, but I have no idea where to even begin.

Please help me.

[demonblaster]

((( hugs mhk )))

Darl I really do have to choof atm but I WILL be back to talk with you and no doubt there'll be others come too.

For now as hard as it is try distraction even if only temporary relief by doing something, anything that's involving you to concentrate but not too hard on what you're doing to give your mind a rest from the stress.
Wether excercise, drawing, cleaning (god forbid what a horrid suggestion 🙂 music, dance at home

Cya later

Sometimes depending on the volume can take a few hrs to post cause of good moderation here so don't be discouraged, stay with us, we'll do what we can to help ok xx

[geoff]

hello MK, your thread concerns me because I also take a couple of different anti consultant drugs for two reasons, one to control my epilepsy and one to include helping me with depression as well, but I think this is a good question to ask Dr. Kim, and if you don't know where to find her then the moderators will do this for you, firstly by sending you an email. Geoff.

[Tiffy1]

Hi , I have had the same feelings as you are experiencing many times .. they are all related to your anxiety and definitely not a reflection of who you really are . Have you a supportive family or a friend that could go along to a GP with you ? You need to talk to a specialised person they help you understand .. you should be very proud of yourself , you have taken a big step acknowledging your behaviour is not your true self . I now remind myself this is not who I am it is my illness , there is a book " the happiness trap " I keep that by my side .. very good start ...

have a walk and do not be hard on yourself 😊

[Sophie_M]

Hi mhk, we can see you started a thread on this topic in December - you may not have realised that a number of our members replied at the time to provide you with some support.  It would be great if you could take the time to acknowledge what's been happening for you in the meantime in that thread:

My anxiety is driving me insane

[demonblaster]

mhk Hey 🙂

I read Sophies post above (moderator) but because I said I'd be back want to honor my word so not sure if this thread will continue or merge with your existing one but either way it'll go to my threads and I'll be able to follow your progress.

I think one of the first things you need to do darl is get back to the Dr , tell them you need to see Doc asap who from there might be able to adjust or change meds or maybe get you to a psychiatrist to be sure the meds are working to their potential

Depression is as we all know very powerful & pulls us down in so many ways which also contributes to how you're pushing people away and angry, I imagine sleeps not going well too which brings on and adds stress.
Do you think the people you're pushing away, could you talk or write to them and tell them this isn't you or how you want to be and what's going on.

I have to choof again in a bit so for now something that's helped me and it's not till being here that I've realised I do have anxiety too in BP cycles so know a bit about how it feels & have though had full blown
What's helped me recently is some meditation that also could help settle the depression too, calm you.

It's not hard as such does take practise but it can be achieved in small doses to start with straight away.

Using your imagination allow yourself as much time as you need, get comfortable in chair bed wherever, pick somewhere that if you were there you'd be completely at peace, happy, sunlight, relaxed, could be near the water, in the water, sunbathing, watching a fire at a camp, etc.... fire and water are both good mind relaxing things, while youré there, feel the tension leaving your body, keep concentrating on being relaxed starting from head working your way down your body, feel each limb & part of your body having the stress released while and how it feels, breath nice and slowly throughout all.

That's a starter let me know if you don't want anymore but I've got a couple of others that worked very quickly and could help. It may only be temporary but you need some break from the pain.

All best darl, you can and will get back to the happy 21 yo.
Believe 🙂