Why this life is so bad

[Kordunasica_AU]

Hi everyone

I don't know why I am here ... I just need someone to talk to as I feel so alone ... even people next door have a party ... and they invited me ... but I felt so out of place that I left early .... and they are now having a great time ... and I want them to stop ... that's very mean I know .. but every minute that continues I am having a harder time not to scream .. although I am already crying for an hour ... my apologies for any mistakes ... English is my second language and sometimes is hard to express myself ... I used to have really bad times in my life before but somehow I got up and get out those situations ... but I am tired now ... and don't want anymore to get up ... I am just tired of living ...

[Sophie_M]

Dear Kordunasica_AU
 
Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums, we are so glad that you have made you way here and had the bravery to post and will be reaching out to you privately to offer you some additional support this evening.

It can feel so very heavy when you feel you have nobody to turn to, or speak to, at a time when you would really welcome a friendly ear.  You express yourself very well and clearly demonstrate strength and courage having experienced bad times and be able to reach out, despite feeling so tired, please give yourself credit here and know that you do matter, we care for you.

While you wait for the community to respond to your post, we would love for you to give one of our fully trained counsellors a call for some counselling support, we are here 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or via our WebChat.  In addition, our lovely friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) are always there for you whenever things are feeling like too much to cope with.

Please keep safe, and remember you aren’t alone on your journey to better mental health.  We will leave you in the hands of our lovely community members who will be here on your thread soon.  Thanks again for sharing. It’s a powerful and brave first step towards feeling better.


Regards 
 
Sophie M

[Mark Z.]

Hi Kordunasica_AU,

I'm so sorry, I can tell it's so hard for you.

Don't mind your English, no need apologies, you're expressing very well, and we're here to listen and help.

When you feel more ready, do you want to share what happened to you in the past, how you managed to get through it and what do you think is the trigger this time? And do you have family or close friends here in Australia who can stay with you and provide support?

Hope everything will be better.

Mark

[jaz28]

Hi there,

I am sorry you are feeling this way, it must be really hard for you. You belong here and people want you here, they even invited you out. It can get better - have you seen your doctor or a mental health professional about these feelings? 

Please keep chatting with us, we're here to help you,

Jaz xx