hi Wanting to get better, there are always other people worse off than ourselves, but that's not the point, you have to look at your own situation and that's what counts, we aren't talking about their concerns but only yours and that's what is so much more important.
In your position you will lose your confidence, I was no different, I remember when I was told to build a rabbit's cage as a gesture for someone, something which wouldn't take long at all, but it took my weeks, I couldn't finish it, I didn't want to complete it, it was too much an effort.
It's not easy to have a conversation with your kids, simply because you pretend that everything is OK, but it's definitely not, and to carry on talking with them is so difficult, it's a false conversation, although maybe your kids seem to be happy that it's happening, for you it's hard work.
I know that what you have lost is an enormous disappointment, and I can truly understand that and definitely feel so sorry for you, but it doesn't make you a failure, circumstances may have caused it, but it still means that you are a father to two children who must dearly love you and don't like to be in the middle of this.
Slowly try and gain your confidence back with them and if you can do this then that's an important start. Geoff.
