I know it's late, but I couldn't sit alone awake any longer. I'm a 50+ year old plain Jane who wants to be a 30 year old thin Lizzie. I don't hate myself or anything like that. I want to look younger and leaner with lots more energy.
I've done it hard the past 10 years and it's showing in my face and on my hips. I used to be a hot size 6, now I'm barely a smouldering spark at size 12. Anyway, 3 sizes bigger in skinny blue jeans just isn't the same.
Boy, it looks like I'm writing on a dating site. ha ha No I'm here because my friend told me it's a good place to come when I'm down. I used to have anxiety and panic. I still have it, but not as bad. I can't seem to walk out my front door with much confidence though. It's a bugger trying to get the guts to even have my hair done. It's a mess.
What I'm trying to say, is that I don't feel like I used to - all done up for a night on the town with the girls or a beau on a date. I never married or had kids, instead moved up the corporate ladder until I got what I wanted.
I moved to Melbourne a few months back to try and overcome situations I left behind in that 'other' city. To be honest, I talk the talk, but walking it is really hard. Don't get out of the house as I'm new here and don't know anyone. I'm retired now and want to work, but I just can't. Let's leave it at that.
Anyone out there??? Yooo Hoooo
