Struggling big time

Guest_032 · ‎07-09-2018

I am a new member. Life is hard at the moment. I have been diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. I’m medicated for these. I’m not sleeping well at all. I continually feel like there is someone sitting on my chest. My heart races. I am exhausted all the time. I work full time. I’m a single mum. I have two children. So I need to do more than bare minimum unfortunately. I’ve managed to put things into place so that we’re having healthy meals most of the time. I do fall into chocolate, binge eating etc for comfort. I’m waiting to speak to a psychologist. I really hate being so ‘useless’, as I’m generally a high achieving person. So it kills me that I am struggling to do even the basics of things like have a shower.

I’m trying to have basic goals - things like brushing my teeth, having a shower, taking my tablets. But it seems like normal is SO far away!

Molijnir · ‎07-09-2018

Hi Depanx

thanks for your post. I am new here too. Your post resonated with me as we have things in common: depression, anxiety, not sleeping, mum of 2 kids, exhausted, normally high achieving and the shower thing.

I was amazed to hear you you say that you are policing healthy meals for your family. I know how much effort and energy that takes. It’s a great thing to prioritise for yourself and your kids so well done. Give yourself credit. You are doing more than the bar minimum so that’s very far from useless.

id also suggest thinking about “normal” being what you can do now, as opposed to before you got sick

as for me, my big struggle is self worth. Hence my nickname = you have to be worthy to lift molijnir (and I love marvel movies). Posting to you has made me feel better and I hope it has done the same for you

take care of you

Proud_Dad · ‎08-09-2018

Hi Depanx,

I'm new here as well. I can't imagine how difficult it must be being a single mum with two kids. The fact that you work full time and have healthy meals for your family says A LOT of good things about you. Please know that I am supporting you and your family in spirit. :^)

Guest_032 · ‎09-09-2018

Healthy might be a bit of a stretch. We’re relying on those steam fresh frozen veggies, or those salad packs etc. Pairing with schnitzel, pre-marinated meats, butterflied chicken, etc etc. So prob not too great, but better than what I was doing before, and it’s surprisingly not as expensive as I thought.

Proud_Dad · ‎10-09-2018

Don't be hard on yourself. I think that sounds great!