Hi, I'm 33/M turning 34 this month. I graduated with a University Degree in Creative Arts for basically concept art for video games, animation, storyboarding. That sort of thing. I really struggled through university but finally graduated last year. Anyway, I got kicked out of my rental because I was staying with a friend and his wife but they were having a baby and needed me to leave, that's fine but I couldn't find anywhere else and had to move back in with my parents. I struggled to find employment after completing my studies and had to take a job on a sheep farm (my father also works there). My father and me have a bit of a strained relationship so it makes it harder. I've been stuck at this job for almost a year now and it's driving me crazy having to live and work with my parents. I have completely lost confidence, my self-esteem is at an all time low, I feel like a teenager again. I try to work on my art and skills in my free time but this job and environment is very draining physically, mentally, emotionally...
I look for other jobs but it all feels so pointless, I've entertained the thought of moving out but everything is so expensive right now and I need to find another job when I move and that seems impossible. I feel like such a failure, it hurts seeing my friends moving on with their lives and I'm stuck in this nightmarish situation with very little hope for the future. I just don't see myself ever getting a decent job, owning my own living space or getting a girlfriend. Thanks for reading.
