Hey guys, I am new to this forum and would just like to say HEY :). I am grateful to see there is so much support out there in the wider community and that its good to see there is a safe place, we can share our experiences, support and be supported,encourage and be encouraged.
I have struggled thru my life, suffered tremendous loss,love,bad decisions and lived thru terrible choices I've made,lived with the consequence of my actions, I've loved and lost friends, lost family, Life has been a roller*coaster AND like a weed I am still here, stronger for it, better for it :).
I would have really benefited from this forum like 30 years ago, it would have been good to have someone out there remind me that, its going to be ok, you will get thru this, in 10 years this wont matter, its ok there is hope and you will find it, don't give up on yourself, keep pressing forward.
Maybe like the Velveteen rabbit, not flashy and new but loved up and lived up in the process to becoming real,so to speak.
I have always suffered from anxiety and the dreaded black dog. They were my constant companions until of course, I found drugs in my teens and alcohol as an adult.
We all have that one crutch. I no longer drink when I'm stressed,happy,sad or otherwise and these days if I do its only once every blood-moon. Kudos right. meh partly...May have stopped the habit but I needed to face the cause of it. Feelings of unworthiness,self-blame, self hatred,lack of self-control, regret all the heavy stuff , I really needed to purge the 40 years worth of life I'd experienced. Knowing but needing to do something.Which brings me to the now.
It all starts with and ends with ME and that what I didn't realize.
Looking after myself is listening to good music, meditating everyday,I journal like a Boss,gratitude journal, I go to a meditation class every fortnight. Spending time with people who are good for me, positive people. Work & balance with my 3 kids and hubby. I also wanted to find a group I can belong to that A) is safe B) like-mindedness C) no pressure D) no compromising on who I am E) learning to live a life I am proud of, striving for excellence NOT perfection and living the best life I can without all the pressure and b.s. Is this possible? Past experience says, yes it is.
So I guess, I'm on the road to self-discovery and it's an interesting ride. If anything, I'm here to learn,encourage be encouraged and keep on going.
So guys, I am thankful for being here 🙂
