hello Bridget, suffering for 33 years is far too long and to be sexually abused I am just so sorry for you to have to be forced through this, is unexplainable and something I have always detested.
What I would do is try and find another doctor and you can do this by clicking on 'Get Support' and scroll down to 'find a professional', this doesn't mean that you have to change your counsellor, but you need support from both people.
I don't know whether you are taking any medication, but strongly suggest asking your doctor, new or old.
Suffering for this long and being abused could be a reason why you don't like yourself, I'm very sorry about this, because what it does is lower any self esteem that you may have had sometime in the past, however from what you have said is that you could be suffering from PTSD, although I'm not qualified to say, maybe your counsellor has suggested this.
It's difficult to be happy without liking yourself, but I'd be interested for you to get back to us. Geoff.
