New here, maybe this will help me

[HearMe]

Hi, I have ?anxiety?depression?post partum depression? Or just exacerbated anxiety and depression from having kids?
I reach out for help and get referred here and there but no one really listens. I think I am abit paranoid? I am too afraid to express myself to my family/friends because I think I have complained enough with no action.
what action am I looking for though ?
I don’t want to express my feelings to my friends because I don’t want to scare them off. I have been told that I am “too much” or “what’s wrong now” that I don’t want to speak anymore.
my best support is my husband
I even think that my psychologist is tired of me 😕 I can never really express what I want or feel properly. Also I’ve never really gotten deep into my issues : childhood trauma grief assault, not a great relationship with mother.

I am super self conscious, I am not in my best shape after having kids, I think that everyone looks at me and thinks they are better than me. I haven’t worked to my full potential for awhile so we have cut back on material things. In a world where material things show your worth (especially in my circle) then I am worthless.

I am extremely uncomfortable in my own skin and don’t like my own company lately because my mind isn’t being kind.

[Sophie_M]

Welcome HearMe,

Thank you for joining our community. It sounds like you've had a really difficult journey and we're sorry to hear that. Please know that you are not alone in this and you have come to the right place.

Feeling that you have exhausted your friends is difficult. We hope that in time our online community here may help you to feel like you have another avenue of support. Have you considered joining a social group or a support group? You may find that it's helpful to find a community of mutual support with people who struggle with similar things.​ You can find information on support groups available on the Black Dog Institute site here - https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/resources-support/support-groups/

We're sorry to hear that you have been struggling with body image and self-worth. We know that many of our community members can relate. You may be interested in the Butterfly Foundation's page on "Boosting body image"

Thanks again for reaching out here. Hopefully over the next few days, some of our members will be by to welcome you to our friendly online community. In the meantime, you might be interested in reading through recent threads to see what's happening with other members. 

[Annie_05]

Im literally 5mins new. And same-same but different with our “symptoms”. Ive tried counselling, medication and am now trying podcasts and Beyond Blue. Nothing to lose!

[amberlite]

Hi and I think your kind off plucky and brave, so I'm glad you've posted. I know the rollercoaster that your on and you wont believe me ...but the ride will slow down and you do get to feel normal and fully in control again. Every thing will seem better soon, you just have to journal all your personal stuff and post all your general stuff here. There are such nice, helpful people here on line... just wait and see.

[girlonsafari]

Hey HearMe!

I can totally relate to feeling like everyone is tired of listening to you "complain". In my culture it seems sharing is not caring, sharing is being a burden to others. I feel this a lot. We aren't really taught how to just listen and really hear people, to sit with them and witness their pain. We tend to want to minimise it or fix them like they are broken. I'm sorry if that's been your experience. I know how painful and frustrating it can be. My way around this was to only share my experiences with people who I could trust to just sit with it and not try to find me a solution. Perhaps you have people like this too.

Sending kindness your way x