new here and very scared to post

[always_hope]

Hello everyone

I'm new here ,first day,and very shy to post...I have bipolar over half my life diagnosed ,BPD,ocd,severe PTSD..I'm here to give support to all and perhaps receive some support in return

Happiness and inner peace to all

[pipsy]

Hi always hope. May I be the first to extend a warm and friendly welcome to the forums. With the PTSD, BPD, ocd and bipolar you have much to contend and live with. May I ask what has caused the PTSD. Was it something from recent events? PTSD can be frightening and learning to control it, almost means being re-educated. I suffer from this debilitating condition and while I now recognize and understand why, accepting it has been difficult. Any sort of mental health issue is hard to live with as the general public often misunderstand why we react as we do and sometimes fear us. Learning to live with all you have would be harder as each condition is different and complex. Others on the forum will be able to guide you in those directions.

Lynda

[always_hope]

Hi Lynda

I'm crying tears of happiness ,that you replied to my post. I did not think anyone would care.

My PTSD comes from being sexually abused by my father and a neighbour,and living with my mentally ill mother ,who was pure evil all my childhood,she tried to take my life many times as a young child, so I suffer the memory's of that every second of every day I'm afraid.

But I have a loving and supporyive husband of 25 years and two amazing children ..girl and boy ..one now an adult the other a teenager.

I only have three close friends ,but they are my whole world.

I lack any self confidence.

My bipolar I guess is genetic from my mother and grandmother.

I struggel every day to cope.and I've just been diagnosed with fibromyalgia too ..so I'm really feeling lost in this world

But I'm always a fighter and I hold on to hope

I'm so happy to have met you

[Touille]

Hi Always hope,

Welcome to the forum.

I'm very sorry you were abused, my mother also was abused by her father. My mother has bipolar too. It's good that you have a network of support and strong enough to write.

Keep fighting on, do are doing well, we all facing challenges in life and various tests and experiences, some which can be damaging.

There are many nice people on here who offer support and care.

It takes courage to open up and reveal problems and you are to be commended for offering to care for others even though you have experienced so much heartache.

Take Care

Hugs,

Touille.

[always_hope]

Hello touille 💜

I have been reading through some threads here ,and everyone seems so.mice,and supporting,

I found the courage to share my story in April this year...I had a complete mental breakdown,I could not live with the pain of the past anymore so I went into a shared care private hospital to get well...it was the best thing I have ever done in my life ...and in there ,I met a lady suffering from bipolar and ptsd too.

We have now become best of friends...

I came on here ,because I hope my story, my struggel,can help others in their journey,

No one should have to suffer alone

I'm still going through my ups and downs each day ,but I want to do it with people who understand

Big smiles to you

[james1]

Hi always hope,

I have symptoms of BPD and just wanted to also welcome you 🙂

James

[Melfunction81]

Hi always hope 🙂

Im relatively new here myself but just wanted to say welcome to you and to let you know that this is a really friendly place with lots of like-minded and helpful people so dont be scared

Sending you love xo

[pipsy]

Hi always hope. My PTSD is also as a result of sexual abuse, narcissistic father, and non-caring, emotionally abusive mother. I actually have totally forgiven my toxic family as I needed to in order to heal. My parents are both deceased, so they can't hurt me now. My marriage went belly-up last year after 25 years of emotional abuse, so I'm now better because I've accepted I was not to blame for the problems I encountered. My ex was the product of 'clinging' parents who refused to accept our marriage, my kids weren't happy about it either. I do have someone in my life who understands my needs and is there whenever I falter. The PTSD I have is under control, I am able to recognize 'danger' signals and most of the time manage to avoid them. It has taken years for me to realize none of what happened was my fault, my parents made me feel I was a waste of time, my ex in-laws ignored my cries for help, as did my ex (their son). Depression can be soul-destroying and destructive if left to run your life. Once you accept you have depression, getting help does become easier, as admitting it means you are strong enough to ask for help. The person in my life has helped me immensely as he urged me ask for help and helped me realize that asking was better than suffering in silence. I still have 'down days' but I recognize when I feel down and can 'lose' myself in hobbies. I also have a job which has given me confidence.

Lynda

[always_hope]

Hello again lovely pipsy.

Must first apologize for late reply.

I have been very down in mood last week or two.

I have been finally properly diagnosed with fibromyalgia on top of my mental illness it's a lot to deal with .

Your pain and story is very much the same as mine ,and o would love to talk to you more here .

I'm sorry I have not included a picture to my profile ..I do not feel safe to do so yet

I hope you have a wonderful happy day my friend

[pipsy]

hello again, always hope. It's lovely to hear from you again. I'm so sorry to hear your diagnosis, but on the other side of the coin now you know what you're dealing with, it does make it not so scary. Never feel as though you have to post a 'selfie', you could post a kitten or something that brings you happiness/comfort. However, your choice entirely. It took me months to post mine. When I did I was asked why it had taken so long. I have often been referred to as beautiful, I have also been informed I look gorgeous in the uniform I wear. I have learned to accept these compliments for what they are. Because of my toxic background, my confidence was non-existent, my toxic in-laws did nothing to restore my lack of confidence. These forums and the man in my life gave me the courage to be where I am today. You are more than welcome to 'hop on my friend train' and journey with me.

Be kind to yourself.

Lynda