Hello Noella
Welcome to the forums. Having a few friends in your life can be rewarding, exciting and comforting. I gather from your post that you feel you are none of these and therefore no one wants to be your friend. It's not necessarily true. Shy and quiet people do struggle at times to hold a conversation and will often step back if a someone else talks over you or appears to ignore you.
Are you still at school or are you working? May I ask your age? I understand you are a regular church goer, but what other activities do you have? I can understand if you are busy with school work or uni assignments it's not easy to find time to spend with others.
You have said you are depressed and anxious which is enough to keep you quiet. Is there a reason you have never talked to your GP about your depression. There are times when we feel depressed when really it's being sad about something. Can you tell us about your depression?
If you have not talked to anyone about being depressed and feel that this is what's happening to you, would you go and see your GP. This is a good place to start looking at why you are unhappy. You have already taken the first step by writing in here.
I know lots of people watch YouTube and find it enjoyable but you need to put yourself in more sociable situations to find friends. First things first, go and see your GP. You sound a bit unhappy but not depressed. However that's not my call to make as I am not a doctor.
Once that has been established you will feel better. We can have a chat about making friends later. In the meantime, think about the things you like doing or would like to do or learn. Write in again and tell us more about yourself and your family.
Mary
