hello Rhys,it takes a great deal of courage to finally post a comment, because we all get nervous especially when we want to open up to people we don't even know on a site where countless comments are made about any type of depression, and yes it's easy to type a comment but it takes a great deal of nerve to press 'submit', hoping that any replies you get back aren't going to be derogatory, but you won't get any of that here, so well done.
It doesn't matter how well off you are, how successful your marriage is or how comfortable everything seems to be, depression can still take over your life.
The alcohol was dumbing your depression, just as it did for me, but your problems are always there when you wake up, so the cycle starts again, and whether or not you feel as though you have the ability to help yourself, you won't be able to start because you don't know where to.
Can I ask you a question, and please only answer if and when you feel happy to, but are thinking about drinking again, and it's not for me to say, but I hope that once you start counselling again you can have the strength not to.
Maybe it would be good to read a post which has been going on for a long time and it's called 'battling the booze', where people have been trying to get their life back into some sort of order after stopping the alcohol.
I hope that we can hear back from you, because it's an interesting post. Geoff.
