Just a girl searching for her feet

[lies_between_the_lines]

i have become stuck, lost in myself and drawn to harmful ways of living. i am tired, i find that i can't even get through the day without felling the heaviness on my shoulders of my wonderful friends depression and anxiety. if anything i am just searching for a way to relieve myself from the struggles, the effort and the pain of everyday life. i know this is something many people search for and i also know that a small few find it in ending it all but i don't want to get there, not yet, not ever. i want to fight, but i also want to give in. how can someone find happiness in a world full of such hate, i don't quite understand but i know that among all the hate there is love and that's what i need help in finding. i need help to search for the good, the light, the love.

i can feel myself spiraling and losing grip on reality, i can feel my feet fading away. i need something solid to hold onto, i need something to keep me from floating away, something to help me find my feet.

[quirkywords]

welcome to the forum, liesbetweenthe lies,

Firstly, I am sorry it has taken a long time for your post to be answered, sometimes this happens and it is no reflection on your post.

I can see how you are searching for something to make you feel grounded, to find your feet, to stop from floating away.

You write in a descriptive almost poetic way about how you feel and your imagery is easy to relate to.

What do you think your life would be like if you could find your feet?

Have you spoken to a doctor or counsellor or a psychologist about how you feel?

Have you tried writing down your feelings or draw things that show your thoughts.? Is there something you really like doing like art, writing, sport, craft, really anything that brings you some enjoyment.

On this forum there is lot of support and kindness. if you have a look at other threads you may find some that will interest you.

Keep posting where as much as you like.

Thanks again for sharing your story,

Quirky